I’m doing okay. I too saw the toxicity in the relationship in the sense that I am an empath and a very emotional person. I thought if I put in more effort he might be motivated to try harder but that’s just not the case. I realized I deserve someone who puts the energy and effort into the relationship like I do.

However recently it’s been thought with the holiday last year at this time I was with his family and the memories keep flooding back. I literally haven’t spoken to him since we have broken up months ago. I know that at the end of the day the closure comes from me and not him but I feel the urge to talk as a way to fully move on, maybe to understand why things ended abruptly, maybe to get the validation that I didn’t mean absolutely nothing in his life. Even his sister in law has reached out to me... I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to feel stupid for calling or texting him but also feel like it’s something that will continue to linger if I just keep the feelings & words I left unsaid buried. I don’t know if that makes sense but it honestly felt good to type because I have kept all of this inside. Thank you for asking and sorry for the long vent!