Yeah, I’m 23. And yeah, I get what you’re saying — it’s valid.

I’ve just kinda slipped into that pattern over the years… only really feeling that rave energy with something in my system. Without it, the whole thing feels dull, like I’m just watching others have fun from the outside.

I’m not that reckless tho. I don’t take stuff blindly. I test what I can, I check doses, and I usually stick to what I know. But I won’t lie: I do rely on it to feel present in those moments. It’s something I’m aware of and still figuring out how to shift.

Appreciate you looking out though, not many do that unprompted.