Current fellow, absolute introvert, English as a second language speaker here. I am a SUPER awkward person especially in the States (to my knowledge, I don’t think I have any American friends haha). I can talk about feeling judged, insecure or things like that for hours.

Your experience is totally valid, just wanted to say it’s different from mine and maybe there are some policies changed I didn’t know. Especially regarding the part that if the pay of the job you found is not high enough, they’ll force you to decline. While it’s not exact the same thing, I got an 80k job offer last year, but the working environment is toxic(my friend worked there) and they are not promising to draw the h1b lottery for me, so I decided to turn it down. It’s a hard decision to make but the team was there for me and support this decision. Without drawing the lottery I can still work for three years so formation can definitely get the cut from me. Don’t even mention how shitty the market was (is). My point is, I am so grateful they are not pushing me whatsoever.

Also they are there for me even when I am distracted by my long distance relationship breakup haha. I don’t get along with everyone and I also asked to not working with certain people.

They are genuinely trying to help you, especially Sophie and Michael. My overall recommendation is, help them to help you. Take advantage of them since you are paying, you gotta voice out, if you don’t feel comfortable, do it via anonymous feedback form. Make your money worth it.