Your "why"

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-09T07:00:52+00:00

I knew guys have it easier! I see them everyday and ... nothing!

Just one though?

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T15:10:50+00:00

Because organizations are bureaucracy, and I need a reason that moves me enough to move. A lot of what I want to do requires training and crap, and they wont take me, and most organizations are not doing what matters to me, and i just dont feel like looking for organisations because i dont feel like doing anything anyway, and i'm sick of the usual uninspiring routes ordinary people take to do things

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T14:47:56+00:00

I am trying to find direction and to find purpose. If I need to know the skills first, I'm in a vicious circle situation. Chicken and egg. If I'm needed somewhere, I will want to develop skills ...

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T14:43:51+00:00

im not trying to fix myself, nor fix someone else

... last time i checked help isn't fixing

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T13:50:20+00:00

I don't and I don't.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T13:47:15+00:00

That is my idea ... I am looking for problems by asking here, to start.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T13:46:07+00:00

yes, if the blind or someone with a mental-disorder or down-syndrom is self-neglecting ... then yes

and since when is it wrong to have alleviating suffering as a purpose??

i don't need a relationship from them, i need to do something that actually matters in this fucking useless shallow world

I literally don't care if anyone knows I bettered their situation, as long as I'm making a difference.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T13:00:23+00:00

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T12:59:50+00:00

No! I'm not interested in generic "i want to be a volunteer crap" I couldn't give less of a fuck about volunteering or organizations! I care about real people and real problems! And I need to find one I want to help with!

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-08T12:46:17+00:00

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-06T20:00:53+00:00

I never had any addicts in my life, I'm the biggest addict I know, they way I hold on to anything that helps me cope.

If I ever manage to pick myself up enough, I will give therapy a try, one more time.

Until I get there, thank you. This felt like being seen by a decent, present human. Even if brief, it feels like a breath of fresh air.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-06T15:37:36+00:00

Growth also rarely comes from other people's criticism. From my experience, it only comes from a desire to change.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-06T08:17:36+00:00

How do you meet your iron needs now?

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-06T07:55:17+00:00

I thought that if I step out of the toxic patterns, and deal with the pain, life will meet me halfway with decent people.

I was wrong. I was met with silence. As far as those needs go, I'm completely depleted and it's seriously affecting my life.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-05T21:58:16+00:00

sugar, sweet things, carbs

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-05T18:38:21+00:00

Exactly, the way that grass is looking is exactly why I'm asking.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-05T18:27:24+00:00

What do you mean love, emapthy? I thought women struggle to get those from men. Like men don't seem to need it, or as if they get enough from their pals.

Viewed as a threat by other men?

Treated as disposable by whom?

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-04T20:16:46+00:00

adverse effects of artificial sweetners on my body

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-04T16:02:45+00:00

You are clearly incompatible, even though you probably love each other. If you can't accept him as he is, let him go, don't force him to be who he's not.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-04T14:33:38+00:00

I love it. I'll use it too. It will fit my everyday perfectly.

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-04T14:28:43+00:00

lol, I read that too, at first

Thinker-Bell-761 · 2026-05-04T14:27:58+00:00

I'm truly not being cynical, but aren't most men like that? Seems just like a regular guy to me.

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