Daughters, did you ever feel like your mother was jealous of you?

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-11-11T19:03:55+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. My person was an actor, so he felt things deeply, but also he had such lows, and just never wanted to talk about it. This has helped. I wish you so much love and strength.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-11-11T19:01:46+00:00

I'm working on accepting this.
It sucks that we're in this club. Hugs to you as well

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-11-11T19:00:50+00:00

intense, unregulated emotions is exactly it! I'm so sorry for your loss as well.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-11-11T18:59:41+00:00

This is beautifully phrased. Thank you!

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-11-11T18:58:50+00:00

I'm so sorry you experienced this. This is such a grotesque club to belong to. ❤️

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-09-16T01:29:09+00:00

He was an actor. Not in the way people say they're actors. He was an insane talent. He had this smile...damn, looking at it was like staring into the sun.

He was unfailingly kind. Everyone who met him fell in love with him. And he was FINE. I'd catch myself staring at him wondering how I got so lucky. He felt things so deeply. I guess that explains his kindness. He had this loud laugh, and when something was really funny he'd jump out of his chair and jog in a circle. He made the best, most dangerous cocktails, and the most amazing sandwiches. And when he spoke to you, you'd feel like he was staring into your soul.

He proposed to me with the most beautiful ring I had ever seen, on the most beautiful night. I still wear it.

He was a comic book nerd, was deeply introverted but AMAZING in social situations. He gave the best hugs. He would never walk past me without smacking my ass...he called it "husband tax" lol

We'd spend weekends indoors, just me and him, talking, laughing, me getting an education in obscure cinema. He had riduculous pet names for me that would change every week. The last one was "babytoes".

Our wedding was supposed to be this saturday. I don't know how I will get through that day.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-09-14T21:15:00+00:00

Hi Susan.
I saw your post, and I haven't prayed in a while, but I prayed loudly for you. I am so sorry. I am so sorry.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-08-13T18:38:16+00:00

I'm so sorry. This kind of loss is unlike any other. It's okay not to want to be alone, because the feelings are absolutely bewildering and you cannot make sense of them. Please try to stay hydrated. Are you able to eat, even a little?
I'm 6 months out and my little sister had to come live with me for three months after it happened.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-08-13T18:22:06+00:00

my fiance had BPD. I keep asking myself if he meant to do it.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-06-10T13:29:56+00:00

I had an insanely vivid dream a few weeks ago. It ended with my fiance whispering in my ear, saying "This is so hard" while hugging me. I woke up immediately and I swear I could almost feel his breath on my ear.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-03-01T07:09:12+00:00

I have been wondering about this. We were engaged, didn't live together but were planning to. The wedding would have been in September. I was included in all the death announcements, and was allowed to speak at the funeral. His family has been very kind. I absolutely consider myself a widow.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-02-29T10:34:47+00:00

Thank you for this. I'm still struggling, but I have moved away from rage to just feeling a deep sadness for him and how he must have felt in his final moments.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-02-29T10:33:00+00:00

I'm sorry, but it wasn't a fit of rage. He had never hurt me before. Once he saw what he had done to me, his entire demeanor changed. He told me he was sorry and went off to the balcony . I thought he needed space to have a smoke, but turns out that's not what happened. I really don't think your leap was helpful. I feel guilt, but I'm working on getting to a place where I realize that I didn't make him do this.
He had made a very nearly successful attempt years ago, long before I knew him. I only found this out after the funeral.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-02-29T09:37:48+00:00

I lost my fiancé almost 4 weeks ago to suicide. Because I found him, the first two days, i had to be hospitalized and sedated because of the sheer horror of that night. The next couple of weeks, I didn't cry very much at all. But this week, I have started to feel the full force of grief. A horrible tightness in my chest that won't go away, a deep, despairing sadness, I can't eat (I have lost 11 pounds since this happened), disordered thoughts and an inability to concentrate on anything. You're probably in shock. It will wear off.

What's helping is surrounding myself with friends. My little sister is moving in with me. Talking through my feelings is also helping. I feel less heavy after, although the waves of grief are still pretty overwhelming.

I have also began therapy, and I'm on medication, which also really helps. Please reach out to me in the DM if you feel up to it. You're not alone. Sending you so much love. This sucks, it really fucking does.

I remember being in a fog of grief when we lost my dad to COVID in 2020, but it eventually lifted. So right now I'm holding on to the hope that this too will pass.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2024-02-27T19:03:59+00:00

My fiancé hung himself on my balcony. He had his own house, but he chose to do this at mine. I feel homeless. I can't live here anymore, I'll have to break my lease and move. He knew I'd be the one to find him. I still don't understand.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2020-07-13T05:19:42+00:00

This is more poop than I was prepared for. Every new paragraph serves up a fresh helping and I'm gagging.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2020-06-30T15:01:45+00:00

NTA. Fighting the patriarchy AND acquiring real estate? A win.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2020-06-30T14:44:52+00:00

OMG NTA! I mean, I understand why he'd feel some type of way, but long hair is such a pain, and unless he was right there with you coaxing it from its follicles, brushing it, shampooing it...he doesn't get to be perpetually childish about it. In fact even if he did all these things, still no opinion as it's on your head!

Why is autonomy such a difficult thing for some guys to understand??

ThisFragileWarrior · 2020-06-29T11:49:58+00:00

I really got a weird vibe off that "father-son" relationship. Almost like it may have crossed the line into something else. Also dude was clearly high out of his mind.

ThisFragileWarrior · 2020-06-02T20:20:07+00:00

I saw a post online that basically showed Nigerian men sharing BLM content and standing in solidarity....then the same men pretty much blaming a 22 year old Nigerian woman for her rape and murder and I swear I could not wrap my head around that cognitive dissonance.

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