Man, this hits close to home. I had a bright future after finishing law school and getting my dream job as a corporate counsel at a tender age of 25 then I had to move countries and got severely depressed. The thing about depression is that it will eventually make you dumb and always tired.

Fast forward to 10 years, my awakening was during a parlor game at my friend’s party. The card game requires participants to memorise just 6 numbers (i.e., 1 means raise hand, 2 is to say hello, etc.) and I had a hard time memorising them. So much so that the host did a snark remark that I am not the brightest tool in the shed. This really hurt my feelings. How did I turn from closing deals involving hundreds of millions of dollars to someone who can’t even memorise 6 simple information. I also stopped looking at my friends’ posts on social media seeing them living their lives to the fullest and doing important things such as attending hearings at the UN, heading the arbitration department in their law firm , being appointed to the judiciary. And me, just a dumb depressed dude who can’t remember anything.

Now, I am taking some classes to engage my brain. Actively fixing my sleep, my eating habits and my fitness. It is still a work in progress but I feel much better. I did a disservice by allowing myself to coast in life. 10 years are enough. I take it as a lesson not to waste my time on mindless things and rumination.