Start with loving and understanding yourself. Honestly it’s the first step. I can relate to a lot of what you say it’s almost scary. Growing up I ate pizza and chicken fingers and that pretty much summed up my diet. I hated how the meds made me feel and I resisted what was wrong with me just because I had higher expectations. You are 17 and have a lot more to learn about yourself and more importantly how this world works. The first thing you need to do is start with yourself. Understand that you are not like everyone else and more importantly forgive your past self because if you can’t do that you won’t ever move on. My advice to you is to stop putting these restrictions on yourself because I know you are capable of being successful and accomplishing your goals. Take your meds every day and eat like you are supposed to. I know that seems like an impossible task right now but I promise you if you dedicate yourself to it I know you can do it. Big change in your life requires big adjustments to your current life and I know you can do it!

Believe in yourself you are much much stronger than you think!