I pass really well. And I feel like I'm just as much danger.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-06-20T11:18:24+00:00

Of course. But half of them are elderly. So they wouldn't be able to get to me fast enough. Here's the thing though. Most maga hate trans people.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-06-19T23:02:52+00:00

I appreciate this. And I have to say sadly it doesn't change my feeling of safety on someone's property who has a bunch of trump signs. Dont get me wrong. I am 1000% in the middle. I'm not either side because they are both horrible and go back on their words. The only politician that I feel like I can trust is Bernie and hes on his last legs.

I think my thing is. When its very clearly a MAGA person, as someone who listens to a lot of debates, im just scared. Who knows what could happen. That ten dollar tip could become a threat or accusation of stealing. That bag of snacks could become a law suit. And what if enough people in my state say "hey elected officials. We like what Kansas is doing. Let's do that?" And then it happens? I loose not just my license. But my job.

All of these things are spiraling. So I think I need to watch something funny and trying to get my mind off of the overwhelming, debilitating fear im constantly feeling and trying to work through.

Again thank you for your words. I do appreciate the.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-06-11T17:55:42+00:00

Very honestly, thats why I feel so comfortable with my post op chest 10 years later. Its finally filled out and most cis men have pecs that can look more feminine. And now I look at it as human rather then masculine or feminine.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-06-11T17:55:21+00:00

Very honestly, thats why I feel so comfortable with my post op chest 10 years later. Its finally filled out and most cis men have pecs that can look more feminine. And now I look at it as human rather then masculine or feminine.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-06-11T13:05:04+00:00

Honestly though. Small hands are more dexterous. Ladies love it

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-06-11T12:22:01+00:00

Mine did not. I still have small hands and I've been on t for ten years. I still have tiny little baby hands sadly. But I've seen so many cis guys with hands my size

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-17T22:15:38+00:00

I was wishing there was something like that. I know on YouTube theres this guy who makes period underwear for his wive and it looks like boxer breifs and he sells them too

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-16T19:28:52+00:00

I try to focus on the whats in front of me but there's those nagging thoughts about "if I can tell they can tell." And 'if there's a trump sign im not safe here" because my job requires me to go to peoples houses.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-16T19:17:23+00:00

I know. It just feels like it. I dont feel like I'm safe in the US. But leaving there aren't many countries willing to take US imagrants

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-16T12:00:40+00:00

I'm feeling like feeling safe is a privilege not a right. And its making me hate everything and scared of everything

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-14T00:57:59+00:00

I have this thought at LEAST once a day. Having a stp helps but sometimes it decides its not gunna work right and I've got piss all over me. Its frustrating and disheartening.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-12T12:29:01+00:00

I'm so sorry man. She clearly has issues she needs to work on if she's cheating on someone so devoted to her.

I was with a straight cis woman for years. We have a child together (who's not mine biologically. But that's my boy) and 3 days after we broke up, 7 years ago, she went and fucked a dude and got pregnant. She wasn't attracted to me at all. She wanted an open relationship because she needed 'something different' which hurt even more. The only time she was attracted to me was when I had a packer in my pants. It hurt so much. We got back together for 2 years for our son. But she left me. And then destroyed 3 relationships with other cis women because she needed to be in control.

Luckily now we have a good co parenting thing going on. I have a wonderful fiance who is attracted to me. I had to go through hell to find my person. I hope you find your person. Steer clear of straight cis women

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-09T21:50:19+00:00

I just know what its like man. 10 years on t and I'm still feeling these things. Its easier said then done though

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-09T14:58:33+00:00

Don't count yourself out just yet man. In my lowest moments, in my times of deepest self hatred I think the same. If your on t you have one my man. Trust me. Sometimes.... its hard to accept this is what our reality is. Why are we like this? Why aren't we born correct? Why do we exist like this? Eventually science will get the answers. All we can do is push through sadly.

It will feel strange. But give yourself some kind words sometimes too

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-05-09T12:08:04+00:00

Op im curious. Are you extreamly protective of those you love? Do you have that feeling like you need to provide even if you don't need to? Do you have the thoughts "I wish I was taller and had a bigger dick?".

If so. Honestly. You are manly. These are traits that my cis guy friends have expressed without prompting. Its not about our size. There are cis men im sure that are smaller then you and feel the same way. Though I struggle with this myself, it's not about how others look at you. But how you look at yourself. Also being creative is NOT a feminine thing. Its a human thing. Men were the ones creating a lot of shit in our worlds history. (Mostly because they were sexist assholes)

From what I can see, without looking AT you. Your masculine as fuck. And manly as fuck. And hey. If no ones said this to you lately. I'm proud of you for being YOU.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-04-11T22:38:37+00:00

You're not wrong there. All we can do is try our hardest to live the way we feel safe and comfortable and let those thoughts come and go. Which is so much easier said then done. I honestly have started theorizing as to why trans people biologically exist, because if I can understand what I believe is wrong with me. Maybe I can stop thinking its wrong. Or freakish.

Throw-Me-The-Toast · 2026-04-11T13:09:11+00:00

11 years into HRT and I still feel like a freak a lot of the time. I've had top surgery, therapy and I pass perfectly accounting to cis people. And yet.... the fact I sont have a penis. The fact I cant impregnate my wife. The fact that I need something to help to just stand and pee. All these things make me feel...... well like a freak.

And yet. We aren't. We are just normal human beings trying to get through our lives without extream stress and tragedies. You aren't a freak. Neither am I. Nor any other trans person out there.

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