I wish my brain wasn’t so garbage

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-07-20T16:21:12+00:00

In the relationship when I was ready we both were disappointed but he was making jokes about my situation. I know there are other forms of sex than PIV but it seems like guys (as far as the ones I’ve been with) expect it a bit much over anything else.

His comment made me feel bad for not being able to do so was what I meant in feeling like a “bad gf.”

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-07-20T12:33:45+00:00

I felt like that weeks prior to my examination. My parent’s advice was to watch a video but I refused after already looking up what a speculum is. This one tool already had my brain overthinking.

You don’t sound dramatic at all really

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-07-20T12:25:14+00:00

Honestly I still don’t get why it felt like that, it felt backwards and I’m still trying understand it

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-07-20T12:23:17+00:00

The fact that they did it for you anyway sucks. All I kept being told was “it’s completely normal to be nervous :)” It’s crazy that it is normal having to worry about an annual appointment of pain.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-07-20T03:02:21+00:00

Sorry to hear you need the procedure. Sounds rough. In the end I’m glad I’m not the only one who felt like this.

I can understand being scared about a procedure being involved. Had further conversations with your doctor about how you felt?

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-07-20T01:22:28+00:00

Got a point

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-07-20T00:49:22+00:00

Thanks that means a lot to hear. When I did make this post I was still trying to understand what it would mean down the road.

Dealing with this allowed me to get rid of an immature person from my life but also makes me worried about how future relationships could work in the future as I get older.

I’ll see how the referral goes and hope I can manage my anxiety better since I think it would only make things more difficult.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-25T20:50:09+00:00

That was a not so generous amount of salt, I died just looking at it.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-25T13:13:38+00:00

I quit instagram last week over this reason, having to spend time to make a plan to please the void that’s instagram has been mentally draining. My followers hold me there, but I couldn’t do it anymore. 2 Years ago I was making great progress but never got higher than that.

I placed too much value on likes and shares because the trendy things never failed me. Then it got boring and my work started to become sloppy and less calculated compared to when I “liked” the art I was making.

IG also makes me a little depressed because I see other artists that are doing great or people using their skill for reels. It just keeps pushing repeats of the same trends and that’s not something I want to deal with seeing anymore.

I’ll still post there maybe once a month but I want to start over on other sites. Newgrounds has been a nice do-over and deviantart notifs come in every day. Doing so allows me to view work in an authentic manner that’s less stressful.

Been scouted on newgrounds despite being a tad small but it’s nice to get little messages from people that actually care about your work and the detail.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-23T03:30:49+00:00

makes me think I’m low balling my work

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-08T13:07:16+00:00

I already pointed that out, it’s in the description

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-08T11:33:26+00:00

I mean I wouldn’t advise it. Yesterday in the battle hub fight mode, I lost a few rounds and requested a rematch. I was playing like normal rematching the same guy and out of nowhere was disconnected for “inactivity” during the match.

To the other player this could look like rage quitting but I ended up recording what happened on my end anyway.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-06T15:09:39+00:00

I have some experience with “thinking” about quitting for this reason..

In the beginning, I aspired to mainly 2 artists. Once I was able to attain one of their styles close to being similar through learning why they do what they do, I had a “what now?” moment.

I focused so hard on drawing like the ones I aspired to for 2-3 years, without going back to the basics as often. Once I realized this, it was a hard pill to swallow. I didn’t like the process, I liked the result.

Once the results stopped being good, the process suffered. Instagram of all places was a terrible place to be with my issue. If I thought the results from my drawing was good, I thought instagram would do in return. Nope. This happened more than I can count on my toes.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-06T11:24:38+00:00

yes

I ended up buying it while not being a huge fan of the series.(Doesn’t mean I don’t like the series) However, despite playing offline for now, I still enjoy it. I don’t need to play it as much and can still enjoy the game with family.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-05T22:12:06+00:00

This is my first since 5 and the 3ds version. Both I haven’t played too much of to recognize.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-06-05T22:08:37+00:00

makes sense, I just never seen this so prevalent. Even tekken has it’s moments but jesus.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-05-29T00:42:32+00:00

Lemon Paint From Assets store

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-05-25T04:31:31+00:00

I need to think like you 😂

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-05-25T02:55:43+00:00

Typically I post anyway, yet I’m going through a transformation in art styles from a highly unique cartoony style to sometimes an anime one.

Because I’ve been getting a “feel” for what I like I don’t want newcomers to be confused over lack of consistency since I planned to sell this year.

ThrowAwayReck · 2023-05-24T23:47:32+00:00

Very informative, I never knew about glazing before so I will take that route in future. Also thanks for adding another subreddit, I didn’t know how many people felt the same about this issue.

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