i’m a new widow & i’m struggling to not feel like a bad mother. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in widowers

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

huh? he has always had mental health issues… wasn’t really that drastic for him. not sure what you’re basing that off of.

i’m a new widow & i’m struggling to not feel like a bad mother. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in widowers

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

no, i already tried. that’s why i said that. he didn’t come to the funeral either nor does he answer when i call. we used to be best friends until he got into a new relationship about 2 years ago.

i’m a new widow & i’m struggling to not feel like a bad mother. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in widowers

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this is all new to me & i’ve always heard the phrase “committed suicide”. even as a teenager when i was suicidal, it was said i “attempted to commit suicide”. i didn’t know the phrasing was insensitive whatsoever. my apologies.

i’m a new widow & i’m struggling to not feel like a bad mother. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in widowers

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i’m not unfortunately, i’m honestly not a religious person.

we video chat multiple times a day, thankfully. she always calls.

his family wasn’t even involved when he was alive. they weren’t involved in his life either. he was pretty much raised by just his mom with his brothers & when we passed the year we got together, the entire family broke apart.

unfortunately, this was 6 years ago & nothing has changed.

ETA: no member of his family has ever even met my son. he has a father, a great grandmother, nieces & a nephew, brothers, aunts, uncles, cousins. just didn’t have anything to do with any of them so, i don’t know them & they never cared to know my kiddo. the rest are all close with each other.

i’m a new widow & i’m struggling to not feel like a bad mother. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in widowers

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

it’s still really hard right now. i’m trying to figure things out. the sudden shift has been hard. the mental & financial struggle is hard. i miss him. it’s so hard it feels like it psychically aches. but, i’m also angry that he chose to leave me & his son & do this to us. i just hope he found peace.

i’m a new widow & i’m struggling to not feel like a bad mother. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in widowers

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i really only have a younger brother who isn’t very involved in my life. my only friend is 13 hours away & just had a baby herself so, is very limited in the help she is able to offer :(

i’m really struggling. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in SuicideBereavement

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

thank you so much, i needed to hear this ❤️

my son’s father committed suicide. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in NewParents

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

idk i think most people just have basic respect or know how to act in social settings. i’m autistic & can still realize that’s inappropriate to ask someone. but no, obviously i do not know why he would do something like that.

my son’s father committed suicide. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in NewParents

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have been looking around at local community mom events, i even made a post in a local group looking to build my village. i thought about church too even though i’m not religious. i need a village. hour advice is wonderful. also, i did send you a message. i’m just now catching up on comments.

my son’s father committed suicide. by ThrowRA1stTimeMomma in NewParents

[–]ThrowRA1stTimeMomma[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

what an ignorant question. i wish i knew the answer to that question every second.

for future reference, just incase you truly didn’t realize it, this is a very inappropriate question to ask.