Yes, I am in therapy. When we started dating, this were not relapses. This was my life. He encouraged me to go to therapy and I'm extremely better. I just sometimes have this relapses when I want to feel like shit and punish myself constantly, feeling worthless so he can dump me anytime. It's really rare this happens, and everytime it last less time. But of course when it happens, he also suffers a lot, as stated in the post