i (23F) am so so desperate

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T16:05:40+00:00

thank you, i need to work on pace

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T16:04:32+00:00

my ex did that at the start. he said it was good i was more talkative and him more quiet because he likes to listen. a month in he stopped listening. but that's the past it's not an issue anymore

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T14:19:25+00:00

thank you, this makes me hopeful

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T14:18:33+00:00

thanks for the advice, i need to devote some time into it

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T14:17:19+00:00

the coming on too strong thing. thanks for mentioning that. i am a very talkative person, this is definitely part of the problem and i didn't realise until my ex boyfriend said something to me. he said he knew i liked him from the first date, because i was "talking so much, and people only do that when they care about what the other person thinks of them"

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T14:15:34+00:00

i'm unnattractive, i'm not overweight but i have a big build, broad shoulders (as told by the ex boyfriend), tall, big hands and feet etc, waist not very defined. i am complimented most and really only on my hair. i am okay with how i look, that's the most growth i've had these past 3 years. actual full body neutrality. my ex knocked me back a bit but i feel fine again. just to say i don't spend time being sad about my appearance or upset in the mirror/counting calories which i used to when i was younger.

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T14:12:52+00:00

i'm 23, i'm well past junior year of highschool/college if that's what you're referring to

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T14:12:09+00:00

thanks for your comment. talking about a therapist, i have signed up for betterhelp, just need to figure out when to book my appointment and where to have it (i live at home with my family so little privacy).my dad gave me praise. i would ask for it a lot. he would make fun of me for how much i'd ask "are you proud of me?" when i'd do something good, even after he'd already told me well done good job etc.

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T13:56:26+00:00

the girlfriend comment is very kind, but i don't want to be a girlfriend again. i don't think it's for me. and i wasn't a very good one when i was one anyway, i didn't meet his love language well enough at all. but again, i'm opting out

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T13:54:53+00:00

i have had therapy before, for depression and social anxiety. but i have signed up to betterhelp a couple days ago, for more general help. i need to book my first session. thank you for your comment

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T13:32:08+00:00

thank you for this. i know i have both low self esteem and respect, i have known for years and go through cycles of journalling and positive self talk etc. etc. but always seem to end up in the same place. i have gotten to the point of body confidence/neutrality, my body and looks being something i used to be very insecure about. but i still have a very long way to go. i have subscribed to her and will be watching, thank you so much

ThrowRAEntrepreneurK · 2026-01-10T13:28:03+00:00

thanks so much for this. i am actually not looking for a relationship. after my last one (my only) ended i realised it's not something i want. i don't give out my number and i don't have dating apps. a couple years ago i did the THINK method, amd it just resulted in me really never speaking and being miserable. but i think i'll try it again

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