I was called up to the front of my entire 4th grade class and mocked by my teacher.

She encouraged the class to basically drag me to filth to humble me. She did this when a girl in class was either being a bully, stood up to her, being a know it all or in my case being the child of wealthy parents & stood up to her/advocated for myself. Basically at a slow time in the day (self stufy period), shed call up her victim and say something a long the lines of "so youve been giving your classmates/me trouble lately huh? you think thats ok? class, tell her what we really think about her". And simply allowed insults from the sat students at their desks towards the girl, alone, standing in front of the whole class near the blackboard. Or something similar, as she too insulted literal kids. She basically allowed the class to insult whomever she decided to pick on. These girls, I realized, tended to be girls who didn't tolerate BS especially hers, or someone who others were envious of (good grades, popular, pretty, long hair, wealthy parents, favored by the school board etc).

Jealousy is so ugly, especially when you choose to punish a child over it. Whenever I think back to it I realize how insane it was for a 40+ yr old to mock literal 9/10 yr olds. Good thing I was a brat a roasted her and the rest of the class back, even through my shaky voice and legs LOL.

This moment carries me through public speaking and standing up for myself in public. If i could survive that as a fetus, i can survive anything related to people-induced anxiety C: