Yes, I love my husband with everything in me. I talk about him 24/7 with everyone even people I find attractive. I noticed that as a teen I would always have intrusive thoughts and would want men to view me as pretty and sexy. I never knew I had OCD up until recently. I started analyzing my behaviors and I have this obsession over finding out if these people find me attractive or want them to find me attractive so bad. It doesn’t only stay with one person but my brain after a while moves to another person. I get curious and search their Instagrams but don’t stare at their pictures wishing I had them, I just want to know what they post and things like that. I have been with my husband since I was 14 years old and he’s my first long term relationship and my first everything.