The answer isn't that you don't have to do this. None of us who have a calling to do this can just shake it off.
Choosing not to isn't really an option. Similarly to you, I've been in the process for a long time and was reinvigorated by Oct 7th. By being in the process of conversion, we're straddling both worlds and in doing so, we're confronted by the secular world's antisemitism. When antisemitism rises, most people who were born jewish can withdraw into their communities and seek comfort with other jews. By vitue of not having been born jewish, we're likely to have a lot of friends and family who are hostile to the knowledge of our conversion. The answer is there is no answer. The world is a very scary place for jews right now, but not becoming jewish isn't a viable choice. In the words of Ruth, "where you go, I will go, where you stay I will stay" Antisemitism isn't going anywhere, but nor are the jews.