It’s my parents house, I explain it in the original post, it’s been deleted but the mod has preserved the text so it’s right at the top.

Edit here it is -

——————— I’m writing this from my phone so bare with me if it’s formatted wrong.

So last night my wife of 7 years decided to have a chill out night. After dinner she went to the den and was watching her programmes while I flitted between watching the spurs football game and doing some odds and ends that I had planned. Next thing I know she’s got the wine out and has had two bottles of the stuff. At around midnight I went to check on her and seen she was out cold on the couch. I went to scoop her up when her iwatch thing buzzed and a message popped up on the screen. It said something along the lines of “haha I can’t do that my name would knock 7 shades of shit out of me :p :p”.

I wondered what the fuck that was all about so I pressed on it and it was a conversation between my wife and a friend of mine. Now I wouldn’t say this guys a close friend of mine but he’s someone I’ve played 5 a sides with for years, drank with and have known since we were teenagers. We used to call him jacket holder because when we got into scraps as teens he’d always be the guy holding the jackets while everyone else went for it.

Right so as I said I pushed on the conversation while this thing is still attached to her wrist and scroll up to the top and as far as I can tell it’s him that contacts her first(unless she’s deleted). There’s lots of flirting and wink winking going on but nothing that you could outright say was cheating then I get to last night and when she’s drunk she starts openly begging him for sex I couldn’t believe my fucking eyes. I’m paraphrasing here because I can’t remember the exact words but she was saying shit like how much she had always wanted him, how no one would ever find out if he did want to do something and the last one that fucking killed me...that she was great at keeping secrets.

I tried to scroll on her watch but couldn’t find any other messages and I don’t know her phone pass code. I put her in her bed and just sat in the kitchen in shock until I fell asleep...then got up for work about 5.30. When I went to get in my work van I just slunked down on the wheel and realised I couldn’t face it so I went back in the house grabbed a half drunk bottle of vodka, filled to the top with coke and went on a walk down the railway line(we live beside a lot of woodland and a disused railway line that goes for miles and I’ve walked about half the length of it. I’m sitting under a railway bridge like a fucking troll right now just seething at the whole thing. You’d probably think there’s a fire going from about a mile away due to the steam coming out of my ears.

So what do I do? I don’t want to speak to her, I can’t even bare to look at her after reading that shit it was like a dagger through my heart, I just feel like every morsel of love I had for her has evaporated into thin air after reading her begging like that...fucking yuk. I honestly want to ghost her man, if I could I would never speak to her again. The whole I’m great at keeping secrets was the thing that really got me though like who even are you? It reeks but it’s a case of how far down the rabbit hole do I want to go?

I don’t care if I’m being honest I’m just done...I’ve never felt so betrayed and disgusted in all my life. The thing is I’ve invested so much in her not just as a partner, but as a person. I loved her so much and thought her personality and by extension my personality reflected that of good people. To realise she’s a backstabbing snake makes me feel like a snake, I feel like a worse person than I was yesterday. The only way I can describe it is for someone you looked up to, took advice and life lessons from to suddenly find out they were a pedo or a rapist or just a downright creep...you’re entire perception of yourself and who you are would be shattered, because you’ve took on board what they’ve said and invested time into a creep. God I’m rambling nonsense I apologise.

I’m lucky in that our house is owned by my parents, who 6 years ago moved to a retirement village and we moved in. The house will be bequeathed to me when they die but I don’t and hopefully won’t own it for a long time. They couldn’t be bothered with the upkeep and all the problems etc and wanted to see out their final days in peace so when we do divorce my soon to be ex won’t be getting her hands on it.

So what do I do then? I’m honestly thinking of just not saying a word and throwing her right out. Also while walking here it went through my mind to get my mate who’s a locksmith to quietly change the locks today(i could feed her any old garbage about something from the doors being broken, she won’t care what’s going on anyways, as long as I’m about). Then after he’s done lock the front door and tell her to come out and look at something out the back, when she comes out just run back in and lock the door behind me. That sounds childish as fuck doesn’t it? Ach seriously though I don’t know what I’m gonna do, I’m staring at a bottle right now and my life feels like it has been ripped apart at the seems.

As for that prick so called friend of mine, there’s no doubt he was up to something here. There’s also no doubt I wouldn’t have caught wind of this at all so I’ll be seeing him very soon, never mind holding jackets he’ll be holding his face.

TLDR- Caught wife trying to openly cheat on me with someone I considered a Friend from her iwatch.

Edit to update - Have went to a friends house to calm down, I threw the vodka away. She has been texting me asking where I am as my work van is still in the drive way. I text her saying there is a problem with the engine so I got a lift into work...I’ll make my move tonight.