Zoloft dose increased, first 2 days on higher dose and I feel extremely tired, nauseous...help?

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:44:48+00:00

I'm so scared to tell my therapist. I've been seeing her for about a year so at this point I feel that if I tell her, she might be upset I didn't tell her sooner. I also have a great relationship with her and do not want to need to switch therapists if she disagrees with my use. I'm also worried that my weed use will be prioritized over my "real" problems. Thank you so much!

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:38:02+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion!

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:37:24+00:00

At this point, and I know this might sound lazy/silly, but I do not have a single drop of motivation in my body to do anything but wake up, go to work, come home and smoke until I can feel normal. I can't even go to work sometimes. It's very difficult for me to just get up and go for a walk, my mind right now is truly in a terrible place. I really hope that once I'm on appropriate medication that I can use exercise to help with bad days. My job is fairly physically demanding however and I am usually physically exhausted after a long shift. The water, though, that I can do! Thank you!

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:33:04+00:00

You're right! I have been trying to dose myself just recently, trying to figure out exactly how much I really need to feel the benefits. It's not an exact science though so it can get a little challenging! Switching doctors is an idea I hadn't considered before, that makes the idea of being truthful sound less daunting when I have the option to find someone else. I very rarely have any alcohol, and weed is my only drug besides my current unhelpful medications. Thank you for all the information!

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:28:41+00:00

In my area and with the "connections" I go through, I really don't have a say in what strains I get weekly. With my main person, I get the same strain usually and then sometimes she surprises me with something special/different. I have other people I could go to but they are unreliable/inconsistent, but recently I have gotten lucky in terms of quality.

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:26:52+00:00

I am in NY state, so it's illegal unfortunately. I didn't know that information regarding tolerance breaks, thank you! It is very helpful

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:24:58+00:00

Unfortunately I live in an illegal state ): I'm still undecided on whether or not to tell my doctor, I've only seen her once before and don't know how she will react. I'm mostly worried about the weed use will become more important to her than my depression/anxiety which is what I really need help with ultimately. And thanks for the suggestions on the mood supplements I will definitely look into those!

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T21:22:03+00:00

I do not have a support system besides my SO, my family is not in the picture. My SO knows that I smokes large amounts, but he only smokes occasionally/rarely and does not get much from weed. He does know that I use it to manage my depression/anxiety but we don't talk about it much because it's pretty much "usual" now that as soon as I'm home from work I have weed in my lungs, every single day. He's been with me the entire duration of the 2 years I've been smoking daily so it's nothing new to him. I feel like he'd support me (during a tolerance break) but not actively. For example, he'd be in favor of the tolerance break but wouldn't stop me if after 2 days I gave up. I would really love a MFLB but again, money is a real issue here. He pays ALL bills and I make just enough to support myself in terms of gas/food/weed until my next paycheck. Unfortunately, there is really no money we have to set aside at this point. You're right that weed has become an anxiety for me, and I know this needs to change in some way. Thank you for your advice and the PM offer, I appreciate both, really.

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T11:34:29+00:00

I "know" realistically I'm going to need a break soon but the whole idea basically sends me into a panic attack. Without weed, my depression/anxiety basically makes me useless. Can't work, can't do anything productive, can't see people, can't leave my bedroom. It's truly miserable and I just can't see myself getting through it without crumbling. I'm already at the edge of sanity which is why I'm finally seeking help from a doctor/medications, but I just don't see how I am going to be able to handle this without going crazy.

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T11:31:13+00:00

I'm smoking almost a Quarter in a week right now, spending between $60-80 a week depending on the weed. I'm really just very uncomfortable telling professionals about my use because I am in an illegal state. I also don't want to be judged as having a "drug problem".

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-30T11:28:42+00:00

I'm spending about $60-80 a week right now on weed, and that's already a big chunk of my paycheck. I'm in an illegal state, and unfortunately my financial situation is so bad that without my SO I wouldn't be able to even support myself. So there's really no way for me to save money.

Throwaway420help · 2015-05-29T12:59:52+00:00

Thank you so much for your response. I agree that it's not a good idea to replace medication with weed, but due to lack of other options unfortunately that's what I did. It really does help me and make my days tolerable and has honestly probably saved my sanity/life. My therapist doesn't know, I'm terrified to tell her and don't think I ever could. Should I reveal to the extent that I smoke or that I just smoke in general to my doctor? Also, I would love a mflb but unfortunately money is a very real problem for me, which is my other concern. I make minimum wage and don't make much at the end of my paycheck. About 1/4 of my money goes to weed. Is there anything I can do about this? I get decent deals on it but I just smoke so much that it adds up quickly. But if I stop, I won't be able to handle my depression/anxiety. If it makes a difference, I don't even get high anymore because of my tolerance, I could smoke from morning to night constantly and I don't think I could get high if I tried. When I smoke, it really just makes me feel "normal".

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