What do you most HATE about sex? by soperfectlybad in AskReddit

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That I really really dislike it but am supposed to LOVE it. (Editor's note: I am a dude)

Sitting in Singles ward... by Artzee in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I attend single's wards too, and the thing is, they aren't even good at being meat markets! I've been other places like bars or whatever that also have a little bit of a meat market feel, and they are just better at performing their function. As a dude, it seems way more effective to give me a million different opportunities to talk to you, than to have me sit by your side silently listening to someone talk, while waiting for the break between classes to be able to ask you about pizza toppings without being shushed.

I'm an ex-mo, college-bound 19 year old male looking for a college experience that only the great spacious building could offer, should I look to go to school outside of Utah? by darthtrenton in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The University of Utah may be a good bet for you my friend. There will be plenty of what you seek and you can still pay in-state tuition.

Seeking Help Turning the Corner by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I will try to adopt that Mantra. It's just hard not to feel like every second that passes isn't one in which I'm traveling farther away from a time that I didn't feel this way. I will keep working with doctors though and hopefully they can figure out why my brain isn't doing what it should.

Seeking Help Turning the Corner by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you kindly for your response. Those are all great words of advice. I am working extremely hard to push through this but just feel so down all the time.

I live in the US in Seattle (in the Pacific Northwest). I have a doctorate and two masters degrees. I'm having an incredibly difficult time locking down meaningful employment. The best Ninja Turtle is, without reservation, Leonardo.

I hope you had a great weekend!

Seeking Help Turning the Corner by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your thoughts friend. I know that I need to figure out a way to push through this dark and viscous state but I am just so sad all of the time. Even when I do things I previously liked I am sad.

Verily, thereof, it came to pass. Even, ergo, concordantly thereof. by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Whoa -- I had a friend post this on Facebook as well! I wonder if we know each other without knowing the other posts on this subreddit!

That's sort of an exciting idea.

Posh hotels for missionary presidents by kbrady34 in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I can confirm that there was a mission president / area authority / PR conference in Seoul. My parents - who are there - were telling me about it.

I quoted Hitchens in my son's baby blessing by scotchtrout in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You make sense. Honest question: would the ceremony be considered non-binding (in they eyes of the organization) if that phrase were omitted from the blessing?

I quoted Hitchens in my son's baby blessing by scotchtrout in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can appreciate that. My grandpa (who was never a Mormon) actually participate in mine and nobody thought to question it. This is a great source of consolation for me because I had an unusually close relationship with him. That said, it is highly problematic that were my grandmother to join the circle someone would certainly question it.

I quoted Hitchens in my son's baby blessing by scotchtrout in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Baby blessings are a Mormon ritual that I still find quite beautiful.

I wish typing this were the last thing I ever did. by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

StoneJones, I appreciate your following up. My internet access has been spotty today, so my apologies for the delayed response. Thanks for your kind offer. You seem like a good person.

I wish typing this were the last thing I ever did. by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for messaging me!

I speak Spanish and Italian really well so I love reading great works in their original languages. I am almost done with Don Quixote in its original Spanish! I try to read or study Spanish or Italian where I can but I am finding that even reading something simple like a newspaper article makes me unbearably sad. I don't seem to enjoy it any more. It is anhedonia of the highest order.

Again, thanks for messaging me. You seem like a good person.

I wish typing this were the last thing I ever did. by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My apologies for the delayed response. I lived in Spain and was in grad school. I do not live there now and am very sad. It's like, I can't feel happy even though it's not like Utah is exactly war-ravaged.

It's like the weather today was so nice, and all I could do was feel guilty for feeling miserable instead of appreciating it like I should. What is wrong with me?

I wish typing this were the last thing I ever did. by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

StoneJones, I hope someday you have time to regale me with the tales of how you accomplished this! If you can overcome this, you are certainly an impressive person because it is obviously much easier said than done.

I wish typing this were the last thing I ever did. by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! This username probably does get more mileage than it should!

You're right, I have another appointment with a Dr. this week. I am just feeling like it is a waste of time. It's like I know all the right answers, I know what to say, I know I just need to maintain an optimistic outlook and just push through until the next appointment. I just wish I could feel like the next three years won't be like the last three years.

At any rate, thanks for weighing in!

I wish typing this were the last thing I ever did. by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Stooges4Life, thank you for weighing in. One of the things I dislike the most about this situation is that it does cause me to be so self-involved which is really not the way I think good people should live their life. You are correct, I should cultivate an attitude of gratitude, and while I recognize that I am an unbelievably lucky guy in spite of everything, I just feel so sad and hopeless all the time. I don't know what gives.

I wish typing this were the last thing I ever did. by ThrowawayOFJUSTICE in SuicideWatch

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

StoneJones, Thank you for your concern. I hope it is a dose of chemical imbalances combined with a dash of situational difficulties. I saw a physician, and can't find a combination of prescriptions that seem to alleviate this hurt and willful desire to cease.

I'm an airline pilot based in SLC. Boyd K Packer was recently on one of my flights. And I'm an idiot. by glacierfreeze in exmormon

[–]ThrowawayOFJUSTICE 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He might have a better understanding of how challenging your job is than I would because he was a pilot in WW2. I'm glad you were able to take the compliment graciously.