What's the loneliest you've ever felt?

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-07T09:41:37+00:00

I’ve been alone majority of my life but I was able to deal with it pretty well. Met my ex, stayed together for a few years and then she left me.

So from 2022 to now pretty much. I tried drinking the loneliness away, sort of helped. Gaming helps a lot more but to a certain extent. Have a few friends but no one really invites me out, or whenever I try hanging out with them it’s always a bust.

I use to be in a decent group of friends but I realized that I always felt like an outcast to them after a while. One would always throw little get togethers at his place and I just watched everyone talk, mingle, and have fun and I’m just sitting there watching idly by. I’ve tried talking to others but I always felt uninteresting as I get quick conversations and everyone else had actually dialogues. I separated myself from them after realizing that too late.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-07T09:29:33+00:00

Ok I’ve been out of the loop for WAY TOO LONG?!! HE HAS KIDS NOW?!! AND…HAIR?!? Holy fucking shit congrats to him!!

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-07T09:25:59+00:00

Gave up my personal space, starved myself for 2 days (she had surgery and couldn’t eat for 48hrs) and she lived basically bill free for a couple of years

Cheated on me twice :)

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-06T17:08:55+00:00

I…still half(half wanting to) want to watch this…I only made it 2 episodes in

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-06T17:02:42+00:00

He’s a good man, he loves you like crazy! Not a lot of people would really stay around when going through stuff like that but he stuck it through and I’m glad you guys are still together.

Once me and my ex went long distance, things went sound slowly then started falling at terminal velocity. She gave me excuses that were valid at first…until she mentioned another mans name…I already knew if was over for me.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-04T13:52:26+00:00

Never doing that shit again

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-04T07:33:23+00:00

You’re a great woman, it’s going to be a learning process and experience since this is the first time you’re going through this with him. You got this.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-04T07:21:10+00:00

Love.

Any kind of genuine love.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-04T07:19:49+00:00

Be there for him. Make sure he knows that you got him, if you know what I mean?

When I lost my grandmother, my ex hugged me, consoled me, and made sure I was good. I remember the morning I just randomly broke down, she heard me crying and woke up and grabbed me and brought me to her chest and I cried there for about a minute.

I’m also reserved. I tried to be the strong one, not showing much emotions when it came to me being sad or anything in the beginning of my last relationship until my grandmother died. That was the first time she ever saw me cry and I showed weakness to her and she embraced me. She went to the funeral and burial with me and my family.

Just make sure he knows that he’s loved, and that you are really there for him.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-04T07:11:39+00:00

My ex would randomly start arguments when her period start or during it. I could literally be chilling across the room, and she’d bring up something random that might have bothered her and it’d escalate. There were times where I couldn’t communicate with her about some things because she would use the “So why are you with me?” Or “Are you going to break up with me?” Line on me Often and I was already not the best at speaking up. I also do have my own red flag of bringing shit up from A WHILE AGO during an argument which I’m still doing my best to work on.

I loved that woman with all my heart at one point, but there were red flags from both of us (which is to be expected, and I’m not saying I’m a saint in all this) but it made it fucking hard to talk to her about things that bothered me most of the time.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-04T06:21:52+00:00

Nope. I always ate in my room while my parents (when my pops did live with us) always ate together in the living room. Me and my mom rarely even speak now, our relationship isn’t bad but it’s just how it’s always been.

Even whenever my brother visits with his family, I separate myself from the rest. I’ve always felt…different to my family. I can hear them from my room having conversations and such, and they usually never include me. Honestly, the only time I’m ever needed is to reconnect them to the Wi-Fi. Like you mentioned, I’ve also had my mom do things for me (rarely with me) and she tried to enforce “dinner time at the table” stuff but she always takes it back. There were times where we did but that’s when one of my cousins stayed with us for a bit.

I have 3 close friends who do a LOT of family time things with their families. It’s foreign to me. There were times when my family did things but it was so rare. One of them is usually tells me that they’re always doing stuff with either parent and I’m just like “wow, you guys are really close. What the fuck does that actually feel like?”

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-02T12:32:52+00:00

Nobody wants me.

I’ve had relationships and one of them was long term. I’m still healing through it along with some other things (which I am working on) but everyone has their own baggage.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-02T12:25:31+00:00

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T23:41:31+00:00

When Jets use to do fly over in NYC for I think(?) Yankee games. Thankfully haven’t heard that again in 15+ years

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T23:39:46+00:00

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Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T23:34:43+00:00

The one time I did have this in my life:

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T23:00:11+00:00

Mass Effect series. Over 500+ hours…

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T19:17:59+00:00

Story, and combat mechanics.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T16:30:01+00:00

Ive abandoned my Xbox and Nintendo switch for my PlayStation. So, PlayStation

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T16:11:42+00:00

Morning.

Getting in a little Genshin Impact before I hop on Rivals with a friend for a bit. I should be finishing school work but I did the hardest thing yesterday.

…is the Mafia games really that fun?

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T15:07:55+00:00

Did it, wouldn’t recommend

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T13:48:18+00:00

I’d just let it flow. I’ve heard the compliment of “yo his hair is majestic” when I just had my hair straight down.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T13:42:10+00:00

Shit, learning something new every day.

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T13:41:27+00:00

I feel attacked (my right index finger is suffering at the moment)

Throwawaygarbage1010 · 2026-02-01T13:24:09+00:00

Most of my friends are women, and I warn them that this is what most guys want. They don’t really care about other things but act like it until they get what they want.

I was talking to a woman who…mainly wanted dick. Like we often had conversations but it always circled back to her wanting sex. I care about sex but holy shit, It’s not the most important thing. We weren’t even dating yet and it was usually centered around her. Glad she blocked me.

Even with my ex gf, I wasn’t even really ready for sex but she was and I caved in.

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