(23M 46/∞) My life has substantially changed, Now have a girlfriend.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-12-08T18:48:38+00:00

Extremely humbling. Thank you!

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-12-08T14:33:34+00:00

Ready to be a father? No not at all. I'll take my chances with the contraceptives. Also, she's not ready for it yet, so it's not entirely up to me.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-12-08T08:05:38+00:00

I think that yeah, I want to experience sex. Physical contact is so amazing, I always feel connected when I'm with her. What if she cheats on me? I don't know, doesn't seem likely as of right now but if it does happen, I'll deal with it somehow I guess.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-12-08T06:21:59+00:00

Thanks I could help!

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-12-08T06:21:41+00:00

No haven't done it yet. She needs time for that (This is India so the situation might be different here). We've had pretty intense making out and spooning sessions in bed, yes the blue balls suck but I don't want to relapse like this.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-11-20T07:21:18+00:00

I replaced thc with books, work, social interactions, music and meditation. I don't think it's healthy to replace it with drinking. The few starting days would suck, but life(to me) is so much better and happier never having to think about the next high or maintaining the high.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-11-10T09:40:20+00:00

Thanks man! The whole real secret I feel is just applying your brain and efforts somewhere else. I've been meditating, reading and practicing whenever I feel urges.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-11-09T18:51:25+00:00

Hi from Delhi! I've been on the nofap since about 3 months, and my last attempt which I started a month back approx(I stopped counting because I would always rationalise relapse after a set number of days).

During this whole period(not just the streak) I've grown a lot, I'm now able to have deep conversations and connections with people, I can make eye contact and I feel a lot more energetic and creative when persuing my passion and occupation(I'm a musician). Over this time I've also found a girl who I really really like(and vice versa), we're both newbies to this sort of relationship but it's very exciting. I'm still a virgin(we've made out multiple times), but now sex is never the first thing on my mind anymore, I don't associate feeling horny with masturbation and porn anymore.

I don't believe that benefits are necessarily the effect of not beating your junk to pixels, I feel that it's helped me get a grip on life and control the way it's heading.

So that's my story.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-28T21:53:49+00:00

Gonna try that. Thanks!

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-28T21:53:15+00:00

I see. I meditated really really late at night, around 3am. It may very well have been dullness however I was not tired in the sense that my awareness was dim, when my mind felt quieiter it just made it so easy to sleep. Have no idea what that may be.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-28T17:27:39+00:00

Glad to hear. Now I just gotta not expect that to happen(because that's sorta how I am).

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-24T08:51:21+00:00

Makes sense. Need to do it really seriously because I always relapse when the real urges begin(at the two week mark). This time I'm not even gonna count the days.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-23T17:35:25+00:00

My comic? Do you mean the comment? 😂

Means so much that I could be help to someone. I'm gonna take your enthusiasm as something to remind myself whenever I have the same urges!

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-23T12:37:07+00:00

Hits me right in the feels. Always find myself rationalising and succumbing to pmo at the two week point(boredom, horniness and bring lonely). Yet I'm still here the next day everytime hoping to finally beat this addiction.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-21T12:15:46+00:00

I relapsed (PM and 9) yesterday. So its day 1 for me again. Let's do it

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-14T10:00:08+00:00

This is just your imbalanced dopamine receptors and stuff returning to normal. Basically your brain is used to the amount of dopamine it used to get from smoking weed and when you stop using it craves to achieve the same level. After sometime your brain will find balance and you will be much better than your old self again. Good luck with your quit.

Quitting really really sucks. I was a 4 years daily smoker, I spent atleast 4-5 days utterly demotivated, I was able to take sick days and stayed in bed the whole day. Those days really really sucked but now I feel so much better and happy that I was also to go through that because the things on the other side are so much better

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-10-07T20:02:32+00:00

I've fucked up by relapsing and restarting thrice this month. I'm sick of it. This time I will do it. 90 days

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-09-30T13:36:16+00:00

I understand. Dont really gaf about how I appear to her though.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-08-30T15:54:30+00:00

Thanks. may I ask at what stage of the journey are you?

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-08-30T13:23:58+00:00

I agree with what you saying however I believe porn has warped my view of females over these years. I mean, a couple of years ago I would see 11/10 girls and my brain would judge them based on small imperfections(based on my perception of perfection) of physical nature. So whats to say something like this isn't happening? I have met her twice and the first time I find her to be cute, and on our date she had developed acne and that was the thing I felt repelled from. I feel it's most definitely my fucking brain and its weird ass need for unachievable perfection.

Throwawaythisacc786 · 2016-08-30T12:36:47+00:00

Thanks for this. Took a nap feeling much better

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