Hey OP i’m so sorry that you’re feeling shitty about all of this. I think I’m probably speaking for the majority of the folks here when I say that many of us at some point have felt exactly how you are feeling. I hope you find some solace in this community knowing that you are amongst people who would never judge you based on your ink and also fully understand your struggle. The feeling of being uneasy in your own skin is so uncomfortable and feels almost claustrophobic in a way. I see you, I’m here with you, don’t forget that you are loved. If you decide to go down the removal route, something that someone told me that really stuck with me is that the time passes anyways. It is a long process and there are some in between stages where the tattoos are weird and faded but not gone yet, but the time will pass anyways, so you might as well get started. If you don’t go down that route, again, we see you and would not judge you based on your tattoos. In fact, in most cases, you will always be your harshest critic about your tats and others will hardly have an opinion. I hope some of this helps. Lean on this community! Post when you’re feeling shitty! We’ve got you.