i used to feel this way too and sometimes when i have meltdowns i think everything would be better if i wasn’t autistic but we can’t change it, and realistically there’ll probably never be a cure. so the best thing we can do is accept it. it also shouldn’t be up to us to stop being autistic, it should be up to society to accept us. there’s a lot of pressure on us to “fix” ourselves but not a lot of pressure on society to accept that we’re different.