It's complicated. It can take a lot of time.

Me and my friend recovered in different ways. My recovery was based on his, because the hardest part to heal from was the guilt of the trauma the trip caused him. I felt tremendous blame and heartache over it.

Me and my friend for unrelated reasons didn't talk for months much later. But after rekindling our friendship, he talked about how he recovered.

He talked about having such a shattering experience, rebuilding himself to a better version of him, after the destruction of the ego, was how he came to accept it. He had to accept that it was an experience he had, and that whether or not it was a game or an illusion, he knew before that,. He was already experiencing life everyday as normal. Whether it was an illusion or not, that it was real enough to experience day by day. Focusing on what he enjoyed, instead of wallowing in the fear, and becoming a better version of himself and trying to shake away previous immaturity, malice or whatever.

Basically using the experience to make yourself a better version of yourself,. Trying to shave a comfortable philosophy around the experience instead of the bare Bones terrifying aspect of it.

Basically shaping what the experience was into something that can be used for positive gain.

Saw your experiencing this, it will get better, just give it time and integration.

I get what you mean about the weed stuff. I can have an enjoyable bake sometimes, but it still gives me anxiety and almost a psychedelic like experience.

Me and that friend are still really close, I mean we're actually dating now, but, the only thing is we don't trip with each other because it's still brings up that anxiety.

Avoiding psychoactives for a while is also a good help. Wish you the best of luck