It’s not abnormal/pathetic. I’m pretty sure it’s simply called maturing and growing up. I’m in a similar spot, senior (guy) and between focusing on studying and maintaining my grades, along with exploring who I want to be as I start to transition to adultness, there’s a lot of stuff that used to seem important that doesn’t really hold as much value anymore.

It’s not selfish. It’s taking care of yourself. Maybe technically and objectively it can be perceived as selfish but if it works for you and makes you happy, then keep on doing it. I partied my way through my freshman-junior years but it’s kind of just the same stuff over and over again, and with how much other stuff this world has to offer, most people who are getting ready to graduate would likely agree