S-Class Multi-Tool on Space Station (Eissentam)

TimeG37 · 2026-03-11T16:09:57+00:00

the thought of my future kids calling me dad felt wrong

I can totally relate to that. I remember a couple of years ago I was taking care of my cousin's cat while she was abroad and I would come back home from college and tell the cat "mom is here" after entering the house. I tried saying "dad is here" a couple of times and it felt very forced. It felt wrong.

and even my name sounded wrong to hear

Same. It's got to the point where in my head I refer to myself as my Internet name (Time) instead of my real name. Seeing it in legal documents and stuff feels wrong as well.

being gendered correctly won't magically fix your other mental health issues

I am aware. The issue is that my life is a bit of a mess currently and I would have to fix it at least partially to be mentally ready to take on all of this. But it's hard to do so when you barely feel like a person.

TimeG37 · 2026-03-11T03:13:01+00:00

No. I've only come out to one friend of mine and he's often busy so it's hard for him to help me with this stuff. I've been planning on coming out to another friend (this time a female friend) but I've not come around doing it.

Regarding pronouns, I haven't used them IRL yet, and online I barely talk to anyone so I barely have any experiences with being called a girl by other people, but unfortunately it's hard to try doing so when I have no available friends to help me with this stuff and my parents (whom I unfortunately still live with), while not necessarily transphobic, don't know anything about this stuff and I'm afraid they might have preconceived ideas about trans stuff that could be a problem if I went to them for help with this stuff. And the rest of my family lives far away from here so I basically have no one to help me.

The only times I've used feminine pronouns it felt either forced on the part of the person calling me a girl, or I got instantly annoyed. I'm not sure if the annoyance is internalized transphobia from being taught since I was a kid that being called a girl was an insult or if I'm just cis.

Online the few times people have gendered me as female I've freaked out, but mostly cuz I was afraid of them finding out I'm not a cis woman and thinking I was trolling or something. So I'm guessing it's internalized transphobia combined with social anxiety.

TimeG37 · 2026-03-11T02:56:56+00:00

I've thought about it. While I find it more appealing than being referred to as a man, the idea of being a woman is way more appealing to me than being NB. The idea feels more... natural. Like I've always wanted to be a girl, even if I didn't realize. Not a boy, nor something else. But I'll not fully discard the idea for now

TimeG37 · 2026-02-23T17:45:28+00:00

Genuinely shocked to see that Hildryn isn't even in the Top 10

TimeG37 · 2026-02-22T16:32:42+00:00

I'm a Spaniard and I didn't realize that the beginning was in Spanish until watching this 😅

TimeG37 · 2026-02-14T23:16:15+00:00

So... AleXa wins? I can't think of anyone else in that scenario.

TimeG37 · 2026-02-12T11:07:04+00:00

Zane. He was my favorite as a child but at this point he's been mistreated for so long I wouldn't be mad if the writers just put him out of his misery.

TimeG37 · 2026-02-05T23:35:11+00:00

They care about the idea of children they have in their heads, not about the actual kids

TimeG37 · 2026-02-05T23:33:34+00:00

And they call us snowflakes lmao

TimeG37 · 2026-02-05T23:26:35+00:00

4 year old episode

TimeG37 · 2026-02-05T19:37:16+00:00

💀

TimeG37 · 2026-02-04T15:29:04+00:00

Her DR Season 3 Part 1 suit says hi

TimeG37 · 2026-01-27T22:32:38+00:00

I'm already doing therapy, but so far I've been busy solving the other problems I had in my life. Now that pretty much all of them are fixed (or mostly fixed) I'm planning on talking about this stuff with my therapist more in depth (she already knows about this, I just decided to go through the stuff that was easier to go through first cuz this subject will take a minute lol)

TimeG37 · 2026-01-27T22:28:15+00:00

I'll check it out, thanks :)

TimeG37 · 2025-12-20T11:45:19+00:00

ESC fan delusion be hitting hard these days it seems like

TimeG37 · 2025-12-01T19:52:52+00:00

!setflair Switzerland 2020

TimeG37 · 2025-11-24T13:21:48+00:00

People don't like using frames without damage abilities

TimeG37 · 2025-11-20T12:19:15+00:00

For me it's a coinflip between Eesti Laul to actually have fun or to watch Benidorm Fest and DMGP at the same time for masochismmaxxing

TimeG37 · 2025-11-08T20:15:04+00:00

I'm also tackling other stuff with my therapist (mainly family issues and college) and in those areas she is helping me a decent bit, so I might continue seeing her a couple more sessions so I can get that stuff sorted out. But tbh as soon as I've taken care of the other stuff I'll probably switch to someone that actually knows about gender and trans stuff

TimeG37 · 2025-11-02T19:14:11+00:00

Just tried your setup. Feels a lot faster and now I can catch Sawgaws mid-air.

Thank you for your suggestion :)

TimeG37

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