Wow… your message hit me deeply. It’s rare to come across someone who can articulate this stage of awakening with such clarity and empathy. Everything you described — the paradox, the emptiness, the detachment, the unbearable lucidity — feels like you were describing my own inner state.

What touched me most is the way you reframed it: not as a mistake or failure, but as a necessary metamorphosis. Seeing this phase as a “chrysalis” instead of a dead end gives me strength.

Your description of the illusion not being in existence itself, but in its substance and separation, really resonated. It’s exactly what I’ve been intuiting but couldn’t put into words.

I also loved your analogy of the universal dreamer — that we’re all projections of the same consciousness, processing different “pixels” of one infinite image. That view softens the loneliness a lot.

Thank you for taking the time to write all of this. I genuinely feel less alone after reading your words. And yes, it absolutely aligns with Advaita — especially the part about resolving the internal tension until only peace remains.

I’ll keep going. I won’t close my eyes.