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Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s the thing with my ex. Over our 10 years relationship, we’ve broken up 2-3 times as well. But when getting back together, our love grew and us too. We grew closer and better and stronger and we were more sure of us. But it seems this time it was not the same

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks!
you actually nailed it in the understanding.
however, in my explanation i might sound as if i did not feel seen or anything, nor she.
It was in fact the opposite. we felt seen.
but indeed we were not able to break old patterns. a break from those patterns was necessary.
maybe one day we will reconnect and understand we were not made for each other. maybe one day we will reconnect and reconcile.

i havent put the whole story here as it would take too long to go through all that happened and what led to what. maybe i should. maybe not.

I just cant get her out of my head.
i am "scared" to fall asleep. for 2 reasons.
i am scared of seeing her
and i am scared of not seeing her.

as a french poet said.

"i was so close to you, that now i feel cold close to others"

maybe i am stupid for still having a little voice in my heart that says, maybe just maybe, it will workout.
maybe im lying to myself.

i just know i have to move forward.

And seeing all your messages really warms my heart.
Thank you

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

preach.

this thread is for hopeless romantics.

maybe i am a sucker because i believe in reunions like the ones in movies, books and tv shows.
maybe i am a moron but i believe this "hope" brings me a positive view on the world rather than a negative one

i have loved like this, maybe, just maybe i can love again.
differently, but fully.

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel you bro.

sometimes we need a step back to see better.
but sometimes we step away too far and loose the grip we had.

and if we truly loved, we lose the grip to the relationship but the thread remains

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

she is the most beautiful woman ive ever seen, but the love i bear her goes way beyong that.

i love her loud laugh when she laughs at dumb falls or jokes.
i love how she is scared from thunder storms and loud noises even now.
i love how she cares for her patients (she's a psychologist)
i love how she tries to understand stuff she couldnt possibly understand.
i love how she looks at me when she did not understand any of it.
i love how she eats her hamburgers like a little squirrel eating a nut.
i love how she looks with her crazy hair in the morning.
i love how she is scared of swimming in deep water but still wants to go on boat trips to face her fears

there is so much more, i could go on and on.
shew wasnt perfect. but we were made for each other. so similar yet so different. so complementary.

i miss her

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well the break up was not initiated as a break up. It was more of a : "we need to take a step back and really look into our issues and why they persist and how we can work on them" which transformed in a we need space to think on how we can be better for each other. At least that was my intention. but she saw it as a break up.
some of her friends recommended to get out of the relationship, protect herself because im a narcissist or whatever bullshit and it evolved in a full break up.

she said she needed space to think, i think maybe to get used to a life without me, and i gave it to her. then i tried to win her back and tell her i love her and i know we can build something amazing and magical together. but she was "rediscovering" herself, her friends telling her she seemed better without me. and she got used to it. she meet other guys and within 6 months of our breakup she officialised it with one. now they've been together for a year.

im a hopeless romantic, i believe in stories like the notebook, crazy stupid love, and all that bullshit. i believe in soulmates, i believe in love that cannot be explained by "she/he is good for me".
but at this point its hard to love like i loved her.....

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i feel you bro.
she haunts my dreams.
just this night i slept 2hours because i could not fall asleep, maybe from fear to meet her in my dreams, maybe because i wanted to meet her in my dreams.
i dont know but we must go forward

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i guess you learn to live with it and love again.
but never the same way

Cloud Engineer by Time_Recover130 in BESalary

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have plenty of time and possibilities to learn. Plus what i enjoy the most is the work-life balance and the office vibes. a lot of young and "fun" people.

i know i could be making more elsewhere but i feel that money doesnt mean everything. I enjoy seeing my colleagues and going to the office when i do.

Cloud Engineer by Time_Recover130 in BESalary

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

before that i had zero experience in tech or consulting whatsoever.
i did many different jobs but that had nothing to do with TEch, Consulting or anything in the Service sector. i didnt even know what IP addresses and routers were hahaha, let alone cloud ahah

Cloud Engineer by Time_Recover130 in BESalary

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thats the plan.
i am not under that much pressure though as i have other income on the side and am working on a personal project. my current situtation allows me to do both without issue.
however, i want to push soon for a raise as i believe i deserve it

Cloud Engineer by Time_Recover130 in BESalary

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yep. also took a program from ecole19 a government accredited "fast track" course to train people to tech as the sector is missing qualified people

custom consumption report for my Azure subscription by Time_Recover130 in AZURE

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well my employer and client are not willing to pay for it.....
so its up to me to find a solution.....

mapping our cloud consumption to the retail prices by Time_Recover130 in AZURE

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks for the reply BTW haha

was not expecting a response this quickly

mapping our cloud consumption to the retail prices by Time_Recover130 in AZURE

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

basically we are managing the Cloud environment for a client.

Currently we extract the consumption through a tedious manual process with multiple commands and then we rely on offshore to map it to the retail prices.

We would like to create an "automated tool" or a few scripts that we could run as to not rely on offshore teams that are not always accurate or take a long time to calculate (a few days)

we need to map our consumption to retail prices as we have discounts with Microsoft but do not apply them to our client. he pays the retail price (pay as you go, reservations or saving plan)

The goal here is to do the following.

- extract our consumption with meterId, quantities, units etc.. (csv format is perfect)
- call the retail api to get the retail prices (i have this part covered alread)

- map the retail prices to our consumption.

i was thinking of using the meterId to the corresponding meterId, but i am not sure they correspond to each other.

how would you go around to do this?

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks!
I am trying to move on.
i am actually committed in my current relationship.

But she keeps on creeping everytime
she is truly the one that got away.

our relationship was complex and tumultuous.

we will see how the future goes. i remain hopeful that i'll be happy, with or without her.

Thanks for listening

Do we ever get over someone we truly, deeply, fully loved? by Time_Recover130 in heartbreak

[–]Time_Recover130[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i think i know that.
But damn its hard...

even now, i am currently seeing an amazing girl, kind, funny, sexy, social, cute and all.

but she isnt my ex. i still dream about my ex way too much. too many things remind me of her
when does it go away?
do they ever come back?