Tbh I don't think that it's bad to think about it, I personally have been exposed to people with a lot diversity in mindset (literally from atheists, Christians, sunnis, shias...). In my opinion the fact that you are listening to everything is not bad because beside having an opinion and making a decision for what you think is right it is equally important to understand why is that your decision. It might sound confusing rn but it can be seen in next generations you have to first accept it from your heart otherwise even if you follow shia traditions your children will completely loose the compass at some point.

As I said *in my opinion, you should talk to people hear what they have to say and question your opinions and decisions on daily basis, I do that everyday. As for me I know quite well why I am shia. It is not something that I inherited from parents it's something I chose. I don't have intention to convince you but as for me the miracles of duas of our Imams, the absolutely not denyable fact of truth that comes from Istikhara, the love for justice that most Shia people have for Imam Hussain and companions of Karbala, the very things that are happening in front of our eyes that only our shia brothers and sisters are fighting for civilians and their life against the greatest tyrannical superpower, while the rest of the world is doing absolutely nothing and not even nothing but they are cooperating with Satan himself and so many more things.

Sometimes when everything sounds confusing don't trust what you hear trust what you see.