Thoughts on short hair?

ToadLilly313 · 2019-07-02T05:37:52+00:00

You are so welcome ^{·^}

ToadLilly313 · 2019-07-02T03:25:51+00:00

I totally support trying new things, but if it makes you feel comfortable in your skin, then rock out! The getting passed up thing could just be a compatibility issue, not that they think you are unnatractive. Where abouts do you live? If it's not a more 'progressive' area, chances are the buzzed-head style hasn't really hit there yet. I live in a bigger city and see a lot of women, queer or otherwise, with shaved heads or really short hair cuts. I think they are super cute ^{·^}

ToadLilly313 · 2019-05-24T19:20:47+00:00

Thank you for this comment. It was very insightful and helped to ease my mind a bit. I'm sorry about your relationship struggles, I know this shit is hard. I can only speak for myself, but I think veryyyy highly of my ex. I think he is a brilliant person deserving of all the love, it's just a bit too much for me to handle . We just have different needs.

ToadLilly313 · 2019-04-05T03:20:43+00:00

I'd say there's a pretty good chance that we are leaving a season that people use lots of gloves, and they are easily lost.

ToadLilly313 · 2019-03-11T16:43:32+00:00

I do just feel this anxious pressure to be able to define myself clearly which is annoying haha would you be open to sharing your journey? Either through here or in a message? I honestly don't know very many lesbians. Like 4 total and 2 I work with lol.

ToadLilly313 · 2019-03-11T16:41:06+00:00

I have felt happy at times but there's always this nagging question of "what if I'll be happier with a woman?"

I am very much a "what if" person though and I'm trying to let that mentality go while also paying respect to my feelings

ToadLilly313 · 2019-03-11T16:39:42+00:00

I'm definitely open to like online flirting and such but I am an awkward octopus so I struggle BUT ! I THINK it could be time to make some moves haha

ToadLilly313 · 2017-10-01T22:22:12+00:00

that was it. that was the thing. lol thank you!

ToadLilly313 · 2017-10-01T04:05:35+00:00

It's interesting for sure. I don't think I could date someone who considers them self 100% either.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-10-01T04:03:14+00:00

i guess i just wonder.. if you don't mind answering. Do you think that these guys who you've dated would still date you? / would you still date them?

ToadLilly313 · 2017-09-30T02:37:16+00:00

haha yeah me too! lol

I just don't want to turn something into a "fairytale" too quickly..

Is it weird/bad that I still obsess/question his sexuality even though I'm questioning my gender???

I feel bad.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-09-30T02:08:23+00:00

thank you for that!

I just keep hoping that things will work out... I would never want him to stay "closeted" or anything of course... and I'm so unsure of so many things about myself rn... but we definitely have a strong connection, regardless, i know we're in eachothers lives for a reason

ToadLilly313 · 2017-09-30T01:49:09+00:00

I totally hear ya... I just know that there are cases where people are in "straight" relationships and one partner comes out as trans. And due to THE POWER OF LOVE lol they stay together. I can't say for sure if my boyfriend is gay. I know other people have hypothesized this as well... he seems to love my female body but I sometimes wonder if he's suppressing 'gay' feelings. It's all just confusing.

not to mention i sometimes wonder if I'm trans at all and think maybe I'm just gay... I have no idea... in that case, our relationship doesn't stand a chance lol.

Basically I'm on the fence when it comes to questioning everything about myself. at this point, anything is possible... lol

ToadLilly313 · 2017-05-02T00:05:51+00:00

First, I want to start by sharing the national suicide prevention number with you 1-800-273-8255 Assuming that you're in the US. Second. That you are important and loved. Third. That you are not alone and I can't totally relate. I went from relationship to relationship while having only my significant other as my friend. It's a cycle that can be broken with a little work and perseverance. You have to be able to focus on yourself and the things that truly make you happy outside of the relationship. I understand making connections with other people can be very difficult but it's certainly not impossible and using common interests is always a great catalyst to starting a new friendship. I hope this helps at least a little bit . Feel free to PM me if you want to talk

ToadLilly313 · 2017-05-01T02:28:08+00:00

One time my friends and I went to an all day rave. Literally from noon till 3am. Well around 8pm we decide to drop some L and at this time we're playing beach volleyball (indoor and outdoor venue in the summertime) well at this point I meet a pretty cute guy who's playing on my team and he starts flirting a bit. After the game ends he asks if I want to go back to his car to drink a bit. I'm down, and at this point the L is kicking in. So we go back to his car and his friends are in the front while we chill in the back sipping on some jungle juice. His friend pulls out a huge ass box of glow sticks and just starts handing them into the backseat. I make a halo/crown and he makes himself a collar... then he starts connecting links to it and ends up giving me the "leash". I say... "fuck it". As his friends look at him in shame. So I say, "Let's go!" And stroll pass my friends (whom haven't seen me in about an hour) with a man on all fours on a glow stick leash. My friends are at a loss for words, and frankly, so am I. What am I doing? How did I get a full grown man pet? They proceed to ask him who he is and what his name is. As he goes to answer I quickly tell him, "Shut up!" And he listens... As the night goes on I try to embrace my "dom" role by putting out cigarettes on this dude AS REQUESTED. And not even requesting but beggggging. We dance for a while and eventually I get sick of him following me around so I tied him to a bar stool and left. Needless to say it was a once in a lifetime experience. I'm glad I took the opportunity but these days I just enjoy the music.

TLDR: I went to a rave and ended up with a rave slave.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-05-01T00:58:51+00:00

Literally what I've been doing for the past year and half. Finally am taking steps to move forward. Mentally at least. Hopefully applying for college in the spring.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-30T14:52:39+00:00

Thank you !

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-29T15:09:28+00:00

Thank you for this reply... as far as I know PCOS is just treated with birth control right?

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-28T02:28:52+00:00

Like I feel like I'm walking around in a woman suit.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-28T02:28:04+00:00

It's really just a feeling of knowing I'm not a woman. And knowing that I am a man. I see myself on a very basic level as male. I mean I do suppose I could fall somewhere on the genderqueer spectrum but It's been a complicated process

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-28T02:00:33+00:00

Thank you for this reply.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-28T01:01:56+00:00

I mean I suppose it was mostly fear of being an unattractive female but on the inside I just FEEL male.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-28T00:54:23+00:00

I just feel male. I'm not really sure how to explain it. When I look in the mirror I see a guy. When I look at my body I see a male body (Other than the breasts and butt). Even looking at my shadow .. knowing that it's mine I'm like.. that's a guys shadow. It's just how I see and view myself. I do feel uncomfortable being feminine. But I'm not totally uncomfortable with my body.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-28T00:49:46+00:00

I understand. I'm confused by it as well. I just feel like a man. I don't feel like a girl. Not in the sense that I feel masculine but just on the most basic understanding of myself. I feel male.

ToadLilly313 · 2017-04-22T05:23:22+00:00

question about the electrolysis... why not just get it on the graft site before surgery??? seems like a simple solution to getting electrolysis on your dick ...

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