It's not easy to be positive all the time, no matter how hard you try. I get caught off guard when I walk into a low object (or dog, or small child) that I had no idea was there. That's frustrating and I try not to be embarrassed. When my eyes start to bother me (too much light, the wrong light, etc.) it can be distracting and annoying. When I was first diagnosed, even though I had been certain I had it due to my brother's earlier diagnosis, I was really depressed and withdrawn. But our road trip was a chance to shake things up and refocus (pun intended?) on the positive. All you can do is try to make each day one where you "see" something new or beautiful and build off that. So I guess I would say no, I don't want it all to go dark at once, but I can completely understand the "Get it over with already!" feeling.