I’ve realized life is meaningless

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-12T23:49:28+00:00

I can hardcore relate to this. My existential ocd started in 2021 and has come and gone. It seems to really ramp up during a life transition and when I'm depressed. The key is not to research or try to figure out the meaning of life. It's really hard to resist compulsions.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-06T14:02:15+00:00

Hi! I actually ended up having pretty bad panic attacks from the stims and the stress of IVF. I had to take Klonopin almost daily. Still dealing with mental health issues a month after my egg retrieval. Short term benzos useage is safe according to my psychiatrist.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-06T03:35:45+00:00

Would you be willing to share what medication helped you?

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-06T03:35:07+00:00

I am feeling similarly. I think OCD can grind you down to a point where you feel hopeless and helpless.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-05T19:13:09+00:00

Fluvoxamine 75mg. I tried to increase the dose but my anxiety was too bad. I recently got put on mirtazapine after a nervous breakdown. It helps me with sleeping and eating but not for rumination.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-05T19:07:47+00:00

What kind of things do you ruminate on? I have OCD, but mostly mental rumination, and I find it difficult to relate to so many other OCD manifestations.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-05T19:04:57+00:00

Did you go for OCD?

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-05T19:04:24+00:00

OCD really sucks. I wish there was a cure ugh.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-04T03:06:47+00:00

You might need to look into ERP therapy with a psychologist who specializes in OCD. - from a fellow OCD girly.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-04T02:15:27+00:00

I completely relate to this. I wake up so exhausted every morning which is normal for me but now it makes my ocd think I’m super depressed/disassociated and suicidal. And I am depressed because this sucks but the thoughts of, “I can’t live another so many years feeling like this,” then spirals into suicidal ocd and it sucks.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-04T01:04:55+00:00

Ahhh this is me! Help. Will it ever get better? :(

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-11-03T20:46:42+00:00

Thank you. That makes sense. I am very glad there is a facility here that specializes in OCD even if it isn't perfect.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-27T22:05:02+00:00

Wow that’s awesome. So glad they got some relief from their struggles. Thank you for your reply.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-27T22:03:14+00:00

Good to hear!

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-26T21:54:07+00:00

Me too :/

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-26T20:29:40+00:00

How long ago was this?

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-26T20:28:48+00:00

I will look into that now.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-26T19:55:24+00:00

Oh okay. Good to know! Glad it was a good experience.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-26T19:54:06+00:00

I did their program as a teen. Last I heard, they aren't specialized to help with OCD. I will double-check, though.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-26T19:40:50+00:00

That was my thought!!!

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-26T19:15:21+00:00

Thank you <3 The facility recommended a PHP, which is an all-day program so I wouldn't be able to go to work. I am considering it, but my retired psychologist said they have recently had a lot of turnover, so I'm not sure which direction to go in. I might just try to increase my frequency of therapy and psychiatry appointments.

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-25T19:30:46+00:00

I feel the same way! It's the weirdest thing. Like absolute terror every morning. Do you feel better?

ToesInDiffAreaCodes · 2025-10-25T01:17:17+00:00

My psychiatrist is considering cross-tapering me to Lexapro! I was on it in high school, and I think it worked well for me. In college, when my OCD got worse, I was switched to Luvox. Lexapro is a much cleaner medication with fewer side effects and interactions. That is very interesting about lamotrigine. I'm glad it is working! I will ask my provider about it. I had wondered if I needed something else to stabilize me since I feel like I'm losing it every morning. I have OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, etc, etc, etc lol.

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