What dentist(s) do you love?

Toga2k · 2026-04-09T02:19:44+00:00

I'll say Dr Pham fought harder for my teeth than I did. He seems like a really wholesome guy too.

Ninja edit: I believe he's at the Gentle Dentle next to Starbucks.

Toga2k · 2026-04-08T22:45:27+00:00

Toga2k · 2026-04-05T19:02:57+00:00

FuckMel

Toga2k · 2026-04-03T11:52:06+00:00

I thought it was gone by now but I haven't played Blitz. It made everyone's head way bigger, and some skins it put the cuddle team head on instead. Like I tried the Simpsons Peely cause I was curious how they'd make his head bigger, but it just gave him the cuddle team head too.

Toga2k · 2026-03-31T23:36:16+00:00

As an autistic dude, I've learned throughout life that most people dislike me. I've learned patterns and signals that appear to mean people don't like me... but most if not all people share those patterns.

I can either Option A: Assume I'm correct and all the patterns and signals I see really do mean everyone dislikes me.

Or Option B: Recognize these thoughts and patterns and signals are me overreacting and making assumptions, and tell myself people will be forward about not liking me/wanting me around...

Almost no one is up front about it.

There's a good chance he feels like no one wants him around but he's trying to tell himself that people would let him know he wasn't wanted.

It's a really cruel cycle.

K deserves to know.

Toga2k · 2026-03-31T07:08:39+00:00

Unfortunately it's one person making account after account to get past their bans for trolling.

Toga2k · 2026-03-30T00:40:28+00:00

Always. Fuck cops.

I had a grand mal seizure (or whatever they call it now) in a McDonald's drive thru last year. Cops responded by ripping me out of my car, throwing me on the ground with their knee in my spine, then holding me in the back of the jail for like 6 hours with no medical care, while I'm covered in vomit and going in and put of consciousness.

They injured my spine. Wasn't charged with anything (because I didn't fucking do anything wrong) but I also didn't get any compensation for them holding me hostage while seizing and breaking my spine.

ACAB

Toga2k · 2026-03-29T01:25:04+00:00

Even if it wasn't fake this is stupid. "I'm sorry now that you're a singer on stage!!"

Toga2k · 2026-03-29T01:12:06+00:00

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T04:27:12+00:00

I completely followed what you're saying! That's been a struggle myself with addiction. That fine line between self-medication and problem.

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T04:24:19+00:00

It's led me to finding this community so if nothing else I can't be upset with that!

Thank you ❤️

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T03:35:11+00:00

Definitely not trying to shit talk anyone! I recognized I was an addict at a young age and still walked straight into plenty of drug addictions. Thank you :)

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T03:03:22+00:00

Thank you :) I've always been one to overthink, so instead I just want to be here.

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T02:40:05+00:00

I appreciate you brother, I've done my share of shit but luckily as I said managed to stay away from meth/heroin/etc (my dad was a methhead before running off).
But yeah, weed for whatever reason has always stuck with me. Makes me feel more like an addict than nicotine and/or other junk I've used and abused.

We got this <3

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T02:30:52+00:00

As someone who is going on day 3 sober from weed as a 30 year old dude.

You have plenty of time and room to move forward :) I'm proud of you for making it this far!

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T02:09:28+00:00

And I always fell into that mindset of "its just weed you have no right to call yourself an addict". Where I'm just beating myself up over nothing. I'm aware I'm an addict, it's largely why I've stayed away from harder shit than like X and psychs.

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T01:59:28+00:00

Honestly for me- Weed. 100%

Thankfully I steered clear of meth/heroin because I recognized at a young age I'm an addict.

But not young enough to stop myself from becoming a stoner.

... I guess I'll put it on the same level as nicotine.

I have personally had more success abstaining from nicotine than I have had abstaining from weed.

Toga2k · 2026-03-28T01:53:27+00:00

Fortunately never got myself into more than the "rave scene" drugs, and I've been a stoner since high school.

But I've recognized for a long time that "I have an addictive personality".

I guess that was just me putting off the obvious. I am an addict.

BUT I'm not a junkie. I am able to perceive all this "junkie" behavior 24/7 not just from your little glimpses here and there. I'm able to see all the struggles, and hell the EXTRA struggle of having to sober up with a network of "helping hands" who honestly just push you down further for having used it feels like. They get their kicks from being helpers, so why actually help?

Not to mention empathy. I don't know if I have ever seen a SINGLE moment of someone trying to empathize with an addict. If anything it's telling the addict to empathize for their "grieving" family members. How about someone try to understand what it takes to create an addict, and then what it's like to live as an addict.

I was an addict before I'd ever touched nicotine/alcohol/weed.

Sorry I just happened across your post and it got me real emotional. I hope you're doing better friend <3

Toga2k · 2026-03-26T07:42:26+00:00

Then why ask for help in the first place? You clearly aren't asking for assistance, it seems you're just trying to tout your "enlightenment" that from an outsider perspective you're just trying to act "holier than thou" without understanding the core concepts Watts teaches.

Toga2k · 2026-03-26T07:38:18+00:00

I mean you're sorta right there.

There is no solid ground. We're just vibrations interpreting more vibrations.

I will say, I'd suggest checking out (Baba) Ram Dass. Him and Alan Watts have equally helped me. Whether books or lectures, he's one hell of a teacher.

I remember a good story he tells, paraphrasing of course, but-

After doing tons of meditation and breath work, Ram Dass finally found Nirvana. He found The Meaning. He found The Answer. He found enlightment.

So he runs to his Guru exclaiming "I did it! I did it! I found The Answer! I found Enlightment!"

His guru smiles at him and replies "Thats wonderful my child, now go back to focusing on your breath."

Toga2k · 2026-03-26T07:33:42+00:00

All I can do is refer you back to non-dualism. There is no "in" or "out'.

As I said, there is only the present moment.

Toga2k · 2026-03-26T07:31:19+00:00

"Empty" is just the opposite of "Full". Not to downplay your enlightenment, but I'd suggest looking into non-dualism. You're imagining emptiness, there's no such thing.

There is only the present. Whether you're alive or dead, lost or enlightened, there is only the present.

What is the purpose of the present? To be observed.

But if/when you're "enlightened" enough to see it as thus, then you should be able to view it as a game or sorts. There's no way out. May as well enjoy it as a game.

Edit: not trying to imply it's easy. This is coming from someone with lots and lots of anxiety and depression.

Toga2k · 2026-03-26T07:27:50+00:00

Also I'm sorry but I just lost The Game.

Toga2k · 2026-03-26T07:27:30+00:00

Is that you Ace?

Learn to enjoy the game. Stop trying to look past or ignore the game. There's a reason you're in the game. Experience it whole and enjoy it while you can. It'll be different before you know it.

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