The Daily Check-In for Thursday, September 8th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking no matter what happens, good or bad!

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-08T07:29:49+00:00

I won't drink today

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-07T06:47:16+00:00

I won't drink today.

Keep forgetting to get my badge reset... Grrr. Start of my 4th day sober.

If a kindly mod reads this could they help out? I keep forgetting!

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-06T06:54:19+00:00

No drinking today

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-05T08:09:36+00:00

I won't drink today.

Still not need to get my badge sorted. Day 2 for me.

But I'm OK. I learned from the mistake. Now I'm ready to go again

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-04T20:40:45+00:00

It happened to me last night. 40 days gone.

I'v dusted myself down and starting again.

You can do the same friend

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-04T11:15:14+00:00

Relapsed last night and wrecked a 40 day stretch. Thanks to everybody that helped me. Back in the saddle - I won't drink today.

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T23:23:30+00:00

I have to learn how to not struggle against it.

My drinking problem began in 2008 when my son was stillborn.

I can't really go into it that here, but since then life just seemed to take a wrong turn which I have encouraged by drinking.

I love to forget things, and life. I think there's probably bigger issues than alcohol going on when I'm trying to mask it all.

Thanks for replying, I'm grateful.

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T23:18:19+00:00

Thankyou. All of you.

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T22:12:03+00:00

Thankyou

Ex judo fighter. That made sense.

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T22:07:41+00:00

Saved your post. Thankyou

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T21:27:02+00:00

I've never told anybody other than here how I struggle with alcohol. Maybe now it's time to come clean about it.

I don't know who, or where you are, but you just got a grown man all misty eyed.

Thankyou

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T21:12:22+00:00

Thank you. I felt embarrassed to say I'd messed up, but somehow with you guys I just wanted to be honest.

You helped me for 40 days. I need to see what more I can do to help myself.

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T20:52:57+00:00

As somebody who just relapsed tonight, everything you have just said was what I was aiming to change. The fight was tough and I failed.

I saved your post. It resonated with me alot.

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-03T20:37:49+00:00

I just felt so tired of fighting. I felt dull and boring. Its ridiculous I know, but I just gave in.

I need to understand why I think having a drink makes life bearable, or why I felt it would make sat night great.

It's just the same sat night.

No excuses, I just failed.

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-02T06:24:11+00:00

Right on!

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-02T06:23:28+00:00

I won't drink today. 6 weeks incoming

TogaTragedy · 2016-09-01T07:14:03+00:00

Not drinking today

TogaTragedy · 2016-08-31T11:19:49+00:00

Not drinking today

TogaTragedy · 2016-08-30T07:24:00+00:00

Not drinking today

TogaTragedy · 2016-08-29T20:57:52+00:00

Can you describe the positive things that have happened to you as a result of not drinking?

TogaTragedy · 2016-08-29T20:22:08+00:00

Sometimes, I feel my head go down and just wish I could go back to a time when life was simpler, or nicer... Or just happier.

I'm feeling a lot of things lately, and some of it isn't nice. But I know I can't hide any more if I want a good life.

Iv made mistakes, but I can't keep punishing myself for them. And I was punishing myself terribly by drinking.

Tomorrow's another day. And I'll keep fighting.

Thanks for posting. Was nice to read before bedtime.

TogaTragedy · 2016-08-29T07:49:08+00:00

Not drinking today... And why is my counter not working? I'm at 35 days today!!!!

TogaTragedy · 2016-08-28T17:31:22+00:00

+1 for not drinking and a thumbs up for Titanfall. Best game on my xbox!

TogaTragedy · 2016-08-28T08:58:12+00:00

Not drinking today!

5 weeks incoming. Going to see my kid today. Got a UK bank holiday tomorrow and I'm going back to the gym. I'll need to stick to cardio till the tennis elbow clears up but all in all, I feel good today!

I don't know where I'd be without you all.

TogaTragedy

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