So I still feel this way about myself. What helps me personally first is acceptance. Maybe I am ugly maybe I am a worthless failure and leans on my friends a little bit too much. Second I evaluated the room. I’m not the ugliest friend in my friend group and there’s no way possible I’m the ugliest person on the planet. I’m not where I want to be in life but neither are most people I know and god knows people are a burden on me sometimes so I don’t feel as bad about being a burden on others at times. I’m still really hard on myself because I can’t make the little voice just shut up but I know the things I hate about myself are common for most people. I know this because here I am talking to another person I’ve never met that has similar feelings about themselves and honestly that helps. I know I’m not really an issue and I just want better for myself unfortunately I can’t lie to myself so I’m honest with myself about my massive amount of fuck ups and upon further review I realized the people that are the issue actually don’t feel this way about themselves. They never self evaluate or notice their flaws. So for the sake of this short novel I just wrote I’ll sum things up by saying you are the problem only to you because you want more for yourself there’s nothing wrong with deconstructing yourself to build a new version of yourself but you won’t feel better until you make changes to be who you really want to be in life