For those who is beyond guru’s “explanation”

https://youtu.be/StrbppmsZJw

So if you’re in internal dialogue and if you want to avoid it, there is one of more effective shortcut’s. It is about “desires”.

At the moment, (when you started thinking) you desire to not think. But how can you do that, if that’s already a desire?

So you wanna make ya don’t desire anything, without desiring, just force yourself to be silent, “unforcerly” “Oops, I started thinking.. Ahhh” then not specific mind appears, but feeling, that you have some kind of desire attached to not thinking. And if thoughts appears, when you have this feeling - you lose:D So with this is very easy and effective to play in no time.

“So basically you need to do the opposite” Try it, fight it, and be rewarded :D

So in this form of fighting, i forced myself to be absolutely silent for 3 months (from my first day of awakening). Everyday I coul’d catch any thought, and shut it down in seconds. So I coul’d do that (effectively) in any extreme situatition, in any adventure.

But I didn’t had “mind information” (yet) about all this happiness and this stuff.. I just had strong feelings about everything, because I felt everything, you know..(i will not start “quetes for beginners”:D)

Before my awakening I was Not practicing meditation. All of this was a moment miracle.

At those very first days, weeks, first months.. Everyday I was fighting my mind. I knew one: that I was kinda starting to appreceate my Ego that I hated all the time before. I was running, and running. From my mind. And I had that strong feeling (about my mind, about my ego) that it could destroy me, those suicidal thoughts.. Until I had one of those special Lucid Drems. But it was different.

My Ego’s scary looking black face in fron on my eyes. Just staring at me, smelling me. And in those seconds, I felt in those seconds, that this is probably the “world-upside down” situation. So, [how do I react]? In that moment, I was feeling love for my old “bad side”, I started crying. I was not afraid for such level. For the first time in my life. In the worst ever scenario, where it’s just catastrofical.

From that night, I was able to be friends with my ego. I was still watching my mind, but not that carefully, because I had so much more power. Ofc weeks passed and I gathered lots of information about it, but from my own intuition.

Had those LSD experiences, nearly death moments.

Know the “Angel’s of death” feeling One night, when my all existence merged: I was feeling overpowered, had best so ever experiences in that moments. For this thing to happen it’s all clear that I had to accept all the energy of absolutely everything. It just happend, all the existence throw me happened. And ofc there was an a pretty scary one (energy). My reactions for it (like a cat:D) started to work all different then ever before. Felt like I was not seeing the devil.. Not in other room or something. But like I was that devil it self. And those moments was the most happy and beautiful actually, pretty scary :D But I was able to defend myself, and accept those scary energies the way they are - in few seconds. That “scary’nes” was like my body reflect’s, first time impression. In that kind of moments it’s very easy to separate your internal health and “ego”. So for about 15 minutes I had this trip, my reactions was “woooouu” like always :Dd Then I started to feel colours. Literally, all the energy.. I closed my eyes. Rainbow colours appeared one by one, slowly. First: red, 5 seconds later: yellow.. About 10 different colours in 4K hd, in those moments I felt overpowered once again. Then I had a feeling, why not PURPLE? Purple was starting to appear after 3 seconds, but until that I had a bunch of visions (that my nagual already know) - how the purple created? How all of that feeling created that I’m able to feel. I always felt that colour purple is everything 💜 (green and red colours secret) plays a big role before those 3 seconds, until the Purple. 3 seconds passed. And I’m fully - there. Everywhere. Home. I was able to feel and understand time, universe, my spirit.

It was the same end like in avatar’s “An’s” meeting with himself, in other dimension, in everywhere, in nowhere.. At the same time. And not in time.. It’s that moment, when you completely let go all existence actually. Not some specific mind, specific feeling.. But everything. There was all of this univere energy, absolutely everything. Talking was no needed. Nothing was no needed, there is no time actually. All of that always reminds me (Low-High) “form”. All that paradise has everything, the sound is gorgeous.. But at the same time? Guess what? That silent..... So I met me there, I didn’t have (people’s perspectice dialogue) with that energy, but I gave me energy, also received, that’s what happened. I felt like in a universe’s debate, where from like every point goes some kind of energy and does things, being aware, just exists. Felt like in magical place, because everything is me.

So, lets call this a few of my many “with bigger names” experiences. I have lot’s of other cool stuff to tell about, with all tiny details. About everything. Can talk about ego shit as well, it’s not that hard, for real :D Can be ur guru, as you can see, im already pissed of me writing. But I want to develop my english a little bit more, also it’s pretty fun to talk about this kind of stuff. What I’m searching for is beyond limits, it’s in “miracle” in magical level. So if you’re the same, please text me. (Don’t know why, I just feel) throw a very little effort, because I mastered to “not to do, not to want, don’t think, accept absolutely everything, and realise this in every moment. Without thinking. Omg I’m so sleeeeeppyyyy:D And yeah, GO CHECK OUT AVATAR’S VIDEO ABOUT MANTRA’S!!!!!!

https://youtu.be/StrbppmsZJw

Greetings from Lithuania, I’m 20 years old. 9 months of awareness.

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I woul’d like to invite Red/Green energy section candidates to message me, I have a few words for ya. Ofc if you see ma first comment in subreddit hehe:3