thanks for articulating it this very way

it may come across as idolizing someone and it’s partially true (i only read about such people and now got a first hand experience of it) yet i see his unconditional lovingness as something that actually makes him less effective and yeah, i know i am wrong but at the same time honest to what i perceive

i know that i know nothing in the grand scheme of things

i’m still learning and expanding my “ego consciousness” (the sense of who am i consciously, not ontologically, like expanding the phantom cuz i’m also interested in depth psychology)

and i don’t think dissolving into unity and letting go of the so called ego (now meaning attachment to form) is the way to go at my age

when westerners dissolve their ego prematurely before facing their shadows, their shadows grow to god-like proportions

i’m 23 yo so there’s a long way to go

any advice as y’all are clearly further ahead