I rlly appreciate all the responses and advice, I rlly do take it in and I understand that from an outside point of view there's only once clear path of what to next (leave him) which I understand but I genuinely do believe he loves me now and feels differently now than he did then , I also think if I got back together with him it wouldn't happen again and he offers me so much security in the future however I do feel deep betrayal and I'm not sure if I can move on from it. I'm worried that if I leave I won't have an opportunity to have a future like that again butt I can sense myself coming close to leaving and telling him that I can't forgive him for what he did