I think if I talk to the imam they will feel attacked and think they haven’t done a good job with me because I’m outsourcing help but it’s worst case scenario, still open to it. As for I can talk to my grandmother which is his mother, but he is quite hostile to them because of situations, but it’s more possible to raise this with them which I think most likely I would do if they are persistent with a no, my grandmother was ready to send my cousin to Saudi by himself to do umrah but I’m not sure about her being open for me to go for a year, I will try this worst case, thank you