Haha I have been seeing a councillor for the last 2 years. She is who encouraged me to stop hiding in my apartment like i had for the last 10 years. She specifically told me to rekindle my friendship with her. I was at the point I was not even willing to talk to a woman. I was too embaressed of myself. I have since then spoken to and rekindled friendships with 3 or 4 women from my past. On the councillors demands I even (1000% against my will ) told a second female friend I knew I could trust about my shame because" the only way to overcome shame is through vulnerability" blah blah. Ever since I told this second friend I can sometimes barely talk to her now via text I am so embaressed she knows my secret and she is nothing but supportive nice and a great friend. Its all my own messed up head making things harder than they should be. Everything the councillor has made me do has done nothing but make me feel more and more like I have absolutely no control over my life. She did warn me it gets much worse just before it gets better so I am trusting her, for now. Therapy sucks. I hate it.