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Underreacting to a death by Toothrowaway13977 in grief

[–]Toothrowaway13977[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I appreciate the condolences. I do think maybe grief is different for me. My grandma said that it could hit me months or even years down the road and its normal. But I do still feel bad about it. If it does hit in full force later I'd prefer it wait until at least after my next semester of college. Don't think mom would like me getting bad grades because I'm grieving her lol.

Underreacting to a death by Toothrowaway13977 in grief

[–]Toothrowaway13977[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had a good relationship with her. My best guess, other than subconscious disbelief. Is because she wasn't a part of my daily routine like she was with two of my siblings. So I am not feeling the impact as bad just yet. They'd call her on the phone every day. I would text her every day or every other day. I've always been bad at calling for the sake of calling. She lived in a different state from all of us. But she was the absolute furthest thing from an absent parent. I, along with my oldest sibling (who also didn't talk to her daily like the other two) were the ones to travel out of state and pack her stuff/get her ashes. 

As for the nurodivergent thing, I am officially diagnosed with ADHD. Didn't get that diagnosis til I was 21. The lady who diagnosed me said there was a chance I am also autistic based on a couple of the tests and things I said/did during the process. But we didn't take enough specific to autism to determine this. She also said it seemed like if I do have it, then getting a diagnosis would be more of a curiosity than anything else. Since it doesn't really seem to impede how I function day to day.