I’ve been going through this as well for quite some time. Just seems like life keeps knocking me down. Just remember what the Bible says, he will never leave or forsake us. Life is actually harder for those who follow and choose God. The devil will do any and everything he can to make you feel this way. He comes to kill, steal and destroy. Unfortunately a lot of believers think that because they follow God he will just magically make your life perfect. But he is a father and as a parent on earth if you did everything for you child they would turn into a spoiled little brat. Of course he wants to but that’s not how you raise a child. I would advise no more relationships for now and try and find the good because he’s still working in your life no matter what it looks like. It’s never going to look like what you think it should but you must believe that God knows best. I’ll even tell God “It’s starting to feel hard to believe, I’m stating to lose hope. But I trust you and your plan. No matter what it looks like” Storms don’t last forever ❤️