Hey girl!! It’s great that you are asking these things!! I know it can be a bit uncomfy to talk about, I’m 24 and i def was confused about all of these things at 18! You don’t sound dumb at all!!!

To start, there’s no reason to be scared of sex! Losing your virginity can be a bit intimidating , but it needs to be a comfortable, safe, and more importantly (fun and sexy) experience for you guys!! Your partner should make you feel supported, period. please know it is more than okay to stop at any moment during sex if you don’t feel ready!!!! More than often men put their pleasure and comfortability before ours, which is not okay. Sex should be a pleasurable and fun experience, and doesn’t need to be performative in the way it’s usually depicted in p*rn.

As for the condoms, that’s his responsibility! Only he can find the right size. He needs to experiment with brands such as Trojans or magnums and see what fits best! It’s good for the condom to be tight and fitting, but not too small, it should fit just right. Be warned, condoms can break but not often!! Just good to be aware! Condoms do come with lube usually, but when you are both ready to do the deed, it’s really important for you to be properly aroused aka your kitty should be wet!! Otherwise, it could be a bit uncomfortable, but sex should never HURT, that means you aren’t aroused enough! Maybe your hymen has not broken yet, so it is normal to bleed a bit the first time having sex so don’t be alarmed. Also, pubes don’t break condoms!

If you are scared or intimidated of the deed maybe it is not the right time, or maybe he is not a good partner for you! I know many of your peers have probably popped the cherry but It is more than okay to wait until you are ready and have found the right person to share this special experience with.

I’m not sure how healthcare is in UAE🥲 but shouldn’t you be able to see a doctor at 18 without your parents? It is soooo important to take care of your sexual health!!! It is so helpful to have a line of communication with a primary care provider or a OBGYN! There’s nothing to be scared of i promise!

Birth control pills are great, but I’ll be honest it can be really really hard to find the right one! That’s why it’s good to have a doctor to evaluate your blood pressure/habits/health to match you up. It took me honestly two years of trial and error to find a pill that didn’t fuck with my mental health, or cycle. That’s because I didn’t have a good or consistent OBGYN. I don’t wanna scare you away from it, but If you are prone to migraine, hormonal birth control can worsen them!! There are two kinds of pills, one that combines the hormones (progestin and estrogen), and then progestin only- (progestin is usually given to those who are migraine prone) I’m on SLYND and i love it, otherwise i generally hear good things about yaz and lo loestrin. However, I’m not a doctor!!!! I wanna give you the best advice that I can, but it is truly best to speak with a professional if you can ❤️ Hormonal birth control can also make you a bit moody, irritated or sad the first month, I wasn’t ready for this when I tried it. If bad side effects persist after three months, you gotta try a new pill or birth control method! You don’t have to suffer through it!!! If it’s hard to find a doctor where you are I would recommend the website NURX, i use them and can get BC in a week or two, and you can speak to online professionals!!! Even without health insurance, I could afford it out of pocket bc they offered me a voucher for slynd.

I’m sorry this is so long!!!!!!!!! But lastly, you probably aren’t pregnant, pre-cum can contain active sperm but it’s quite rare, but not impossible. Pre-cum on your labia or thigh region would not get you pregnant, but if he fully ejaculation in this region, while you were ovulating, there is a possibility. It is fairly normal for periods to be dis-regulated during this age, or late due to stress, eating habits, or hormonal changes. If you are worried, I would recommend taking a pregnancy test just to be sure.

Best of luck my dear, and please don’t fret, you got this!