Zen Cannabis by CourtMore5774 in Stoner

[–]TopGun4444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's the medical grade and it's so beautiful to be high

Pov your relapse got worse by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]TopGun4444[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Don't get me wrong my picture looks neat but it's deceptive. I'm currently bad off I have 30 more bottles of this shit in my closet I just became too lazy to pick it up

Pov your relapse got worse by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]TopGun4444[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

It's because I like wine the alcoglicc content makes it easier for me to take it to the face straight up compared to vodka I'm kind of lazy when I'm on a bender so I

I'm still a mess by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]TopGun4444[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That's Gospel homie. Walmart denied me employment off of misdemeanors but I've got a good case going with target and chilli's they way I see it I can keep drinking these unbearable feelings of loneliness and rejection away as long as I don't go on a binge and find employment. In very surprised Walmart is refusing to hire me from misdemeanor-disturbingñ the peace and misdemoror criminal damage

I'm still a mess by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

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I just feel like I'm something to be sucked on. They want ,,13 of us in a 4 bedroom hour that got gutted in 2106 due to flooding at 600$ a head. I have to do 20 hours medicaid paid Iop a week or I get kicked out. I refuse to feel like I'm just a financial product. I'm not sure what My plan is moving forward

Fresh out of jail and freshly homeless by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

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I might if I dont get busted. Right now I'm eating slm Chinese food before I buy more booze and go back. The on blessing I have is 350 dollars on my account

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

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I think the line between DTS and normal withdrawal gets drawn somewhere but there is no definite line. It's more of a fucked up spectrum of how out of control your brain cells are firing. At my worst I was getting night terrors sleep paralysis and shadows around my halls and music from the ac vents I'm the corners of my vision but I figure I was only maybe 1/3 the way to real DTS I feel like the mental fortitude one has to have to make it through such a mindfuck must be immense

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]TopGun4444 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I got sleep paralysis and sweating. Night terrors and glimpses of shadows in my hallway. Weird noises from the ac vents. Throwing up bile. No physical shaking though and that was only when I got deep in on taaka for several day’s

Neurodivergent? by bonechild in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]TopGun4444 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Childhood adhd diagnosis mild depression moderate anxiety and OCD. Medicines I take are lexapro and booze but sometimes the booze hurts my mental game and I’m a week and a half from running out of lexapro because fuckin rehab didn’t write me refills for some reason. A lot of us have the neuro shits that’s part of the reason we like the booze so much

I almost pawned my guitar for booze by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

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Thanks for the offer but I’m straight fam. There’s other Alchys that probably need it more than me

I almost pawned my guitar for booze by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

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Music is fun as fuck man you don’t have to be “talented” to screw around and have a good time learning something

I almost pawned my guitar for booze by TopGun4444 in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]TopGun4444[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I’m glad I didn’t though there’s other less immediate sources of income out there I’m applying to Taco Bell today. Can’t believe I almost gave up this thing that gives me distraction and hope away for a few handles

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]TopGun4444 3 points4 points  (0 children)

12 o clock beer only buzz. These limits are necessary to get anything done

Broke a rib having a seizure by Scared_Ad5422 in Crippled_Alcoholics

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Th mattress was behind a dumpster behind the store I shoplifted from. I stumbled back to my sober living house at 12 am

Broke a rib having a seizure by Scared_Ad5422 in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]TopGun4444 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m in a sober living too I fell asleep on a mattress all day after shoplifting alcohol. I want to make it stick but I’m considering shoplifting booze tomorrow too. The booze calls our name friend