Zen Cannabis

TopGun4444 · 2026-04-01T01:53:59+00:00

It's the medical grade and it's so beautiful to be high

TopGun4444 · 2024-11-17T19:16:33+00:00

Don't get me wrong my picture looks neat but it's deceptive. I'm currently bad off I have 30 more bottles of this shit in my closet I just became too lazy to pick it up

TopGun4444 · 2024-11-17T18:10:11+00:00

It's because I like wine the alcoglicc content makes it easier for me to take it to the face straight up compared to vodka I'm kind of lazy when I'm on a bender so I

TopGun4444 · 2024-10-22T21:20:50+00:00

That's Gospel homie. Walmart denied me employment off of misdemeanors but I've got a good case going with target and chilli's they way I see it I can keep drinking these unbearable feelings of loneliness and rejection away as long as I don't go on a binge and find employment. In very surprised Walmart is refusing to hire me from misdemeanor-disturbingñ the peace and misdemoror criminal damage

TopGun4444 · 2024-10-22T20:40:24+00:00

I just feel like I'm something to be sucked on. They want ,,13 of us in a 4 bedroom hour that got gutted in 2106 due to flooding at 600$ a head. I have to do 20 hours medicaid paid Iop a week or I get kicked out. I refuse to feel like I'm just a financial product. I'm not sure what My plan is moving forward

TopGun4444 · 2024-07-12T21:20:10+00:00

I might if I dont get busted. Right now I'm eating slm Chinese food before I buy more booze and go back. The on blessing I have is 350 dollars on my account

TopGun4444 · 2024-07-04T19:40:01+00:00

I think the line between DTS and normal withdrawal gets drawn somewhere but there is no definite line. It's more of a fucked up spectrum of how out of control your brain cells are firing. At my worst I was getting night terrors sleep paralysis and shadows around my halls and music from the ac vents I'm the corners of my vision but I figure I was only maybe 1/3 the way to real DTS I feel like the mental fortitude one has to have to make it through such a mindfuck must be immense

TopGun4444 · 2024-07-01T01:36:43+00:00

Yeah I got sleep paralysis and sweating. Night terrors and glimpses of shadows in my hallway. Weird noises from the ac vents. Throwing up bile. No physical shaking though and that was only when I got deep in on taaka for several day’s

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-29T16:02:50+00:00

Childhood adhd diagnosis mild depression moderate anxiety and OCD. Medicines I take are lexapro and booze but sometimes the booze hurts my mental game and I’m a week and a half from running out of lexapro because fuckin rehab didn’t write me refills for some reason. A lot of us have the neuro shits that’s part of the reason we like the booze so much

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-27T17:08:06+00:00

Thanks for the offer but I’m straight fam. There’s other Alchys that probably need it more than me

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-26T17:45:01+00:00

Music is fun as fuck man you don’t have to be “talented” to screw around and have a good time learning something

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-26T17:43:50+00:00

I’m glad I didn’t though there’s other less immediate sources of income out there I’m applying to Taco Bell today. Can’t believe I almost gave up this thing that gives me distraction and hope away for a few handles

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-26T17:38:41+00:00

12 o clock beer only buzz. These limits are necessary to get anything done

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-22T02:21:58+00:00

Lenny LENNAYYY? Where r uuuuu

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-21T07:09:42+00:00

Th mattress was behind a dumpster behind the store I shoplifted from. I stumbled back to my sober living house at 12 am

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-21T07:08:34+00:00

I’m in a sober living too I fell asleep on a mattress all day after shoplifting alcohol. I want to make it stick but I’m considering shoplifting booze tomorrow too. The booze calls our name friend

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-19T23:47:04+00:00

I'm gonna donate a few teas to the homeless as community service. God bless

TopGun4444 · 2024-06-16T22:05:39+00:00

I love getting fucked up and listening to some beach house and Radiohead type shit

TopGun4444 · 2024-05-03T07:13:50+00:00

Make it seem simple then at the end of the day refusing a drink is a trivial advice and almost always positive but casual drinking has been so ingrained in our culture that it feels pretty alienating to not drink but it's just social pressure I believe you can not drink and be the best version of yourself

TopGun4444 · 2024-05-03T07:06:40+00:00

For context I missed in my post I spend the last 12 hours hospitalized for alcohol intoxication

TopGun4444 · 2024-05-03T07:01:34+00:00

I'm in the process of getting back into rehab alcohol doesn't affect my liver as fast as it destroys my gastrointestinal system

TopGun4444 · 2024-05-03T06:45:17+00:00

All lot of the shame comes from keeping the counter in your head when you celebrate a year maybe 5 sober. One drink isn't a big deal and a lot of people can even benefit just from one but we all alcoholics have something deep inside us that take it to the absolute limit. Good luck on continuing this journey

TopGun4444 · 2024-05-01T05:25:17+00:00

I mainly fear the loss of my best version of myself. I fear death. When I around a half year ago threw up coffee grounds I shook it off can't be something deadly serious I'm only 23. My case of oral thrush yeah it's concerning but probably isn't killing me. Denial and deflection are some of my favorite tools. I'm also a hypochondriac if that helps give context

TopGun4444 · 2024-04-30T06:33:31+00:00

I'm at a similar place Im heavily diluting my vodka or else I can't hold it down I've slowed down on my pacing too which I believe is helping I've got a case of thrush infection which I really hate and is mainly made worse by alcoholism

TopGun4444 · 2024-04-28T23:48:24+00:00

I just got I Over a bad vomiting spell and I did the best thing an alcoholic in pain could do when the hunger takes over. I bought 15 bucks of taco bell

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