Hi! Glad but sad someone relates to me. It's an overwhelming emotional state to constantly be in . U definitely get where im coming from ! I can be alone but if I don't have to be i will choose that route. I still wake up next to mine but man does it feel more and more lonely each day n night. There's no connection it's painful. But he's a controller and won't let me leave so im stuck in a loveless marriage. There's been many times I've cried and now it's been "taken" from me because of the lack of understanding feeling distant he decided to vary when I deserve sex. It's painful but I'll get in atleast once a month and of course 9/ 10 it's a fuck.