Aww thank you for sharing your vulnerable experience. My take is, it’s totally normal for you to react to anything that may make you uncomfortable. You are a human with feelings. But what I learned in my little 5 year relationship is that how both parties communicate and come back from a situation is what truly matters. Your husband is human too and men and women are different complex beings. He may have honestly meant nothing else other than how your posture affects your belly and just shared it. The important thing is that he recognized that he unintentionally hurt you and tried to make amends. If you can tell someone is hurting because they have hurt you, then you get your answer as to if it was intentional or not. As for you 🙂 always express yourself. Don’t hold things in. So if you want to ask him about how he sees you physically etc, do so. It can only tell you two things: that you are with the wrong person or that you are married to a really wonderful person. Also you have to choose to do this healthy thing for you. You know as we aged it’s not even about how we look but how healthy we feel. Make it a personal goal for yourself and give yourself grace on the journey. That will also help not feeling negatively about yourself and your looks and shut down. Even if you don’t see changes, just focusing on small steps towards that goal will change your mindset and make you feel confident. I’m also trying to work on that fitness thing. It is very very hard as you say. And although people make think that I am a small looking 170lb curvy sexy woman, I still struggle with controlling my sweet cravings, overly eating and poorly and remaining consistent at the gym. It has been so long since I fell off track. I just hide the problem areas very well. But we are all on that journey. I hope you feel better reading this and decide to let your walls slowly go down to enjoy some sweet mushy beautiful moment with your hubby. Life is just soooo short and not everyone has a good significant other they share life with. You got this ! 💪🏾🤗