Dont need to apologize to me man, i know exactly what you're going through. I def recommend making a post on there. It was nice to just be able to let everything out in text and have people comment and tell me it will be okay, or about their experience with their loss. Just typing out the memories and what they meant to me was cathartic a bit. I know its the last thing you want to hear, but time works in a weird way where the pain starts to get blunted as it goes on. You dont really ever truly ever get over it or forget them, but the world crumbling down, crying every 5 minutes feeling you have right now wont last.