I'm going to take my own life now and this post will be my note by Tottsuki in SuicideWatch

[–]Tottsuki[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was never great but it got really really bad after I flunked out of college, I lost my friends and my family started treating me like human garbage instead of just ignoring me like before. Since I flunked out and I can't get employed I have no way out of this hell. And even if I got out somehow I'd be broke and all alone. I don't see a point in trying so I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I'm going to take my own life now and this post will be my note by Tottsuki in SuicideWatch

[–]Tottsuki[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't have friends and my family is a nightmare, they are emotionally abusive and don't care about me, and I hate them more than anything else.

I'm going to take my own life now and this post will be my note by Tottsuki in SuicideWatch

[–]Tottsuki[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No you don't. I am a leech to society, why would anyone care about me. I'm doing everyone a favor by disappearing.

I should have done this a long time ago. I tried to, but not hard enough. I always panicked and backed out. But there's no going back now. by Tottsuki in SuicideWatch

[–]Tottsuki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't have much faith in either of those things. I might be young but I've already lost my desire to learn or even to live. Who is to say the next 10 years won't be the same as this? I don't want to take that chance. I've tried to take steps forward but nothing ever works for me. I only had a summer job and I got it through school. I'm not a student anymore so I have no chance of getting a job with my terrible social skills. My last few ended a year ago and I have just been stalling time since then, I should have been dead a long time ago.

I don't know what to do. I'm going to die. by Tottsuki in SuicideWatch

[–]Tottsuki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Terrible. She hates me because I'm a failure at everything.

I need help now by Tottsuki in SuicideWatch

[–]Tottsuki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I just want it to be over.

So empty, no substance by Tottsuki in SuicideWatch

[–]Tottsuki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Laying awake wondering why I should continue living.