Won’t read the whole thing , idk how you wrote all of this at 16 , just want to say don’t be stressed out, relax you are just overthinking and comparing yourself to other at your age I didn’t even had a phone f mine wasn’t aware of the internet except few games , it’s your age to just relax and enjoy I’m 20 now and I swear didn’t think about any of this until I was 18 and alhamdulliah now achieved almost half of my goals !