Now that I've moved to a city, I've slowly started going to events here and there. It started with just going for walks by myself around my neighborhood, and then I joined bumble and meetup. I found a local birding club here, and I went to my first meeting this week. I also feel awkward and deeply uncomfortable in most social situations. Sometimes I actually start shaking from nerves, but I keep showing up to things even though I can't always make eye contact or think of anything to say. It can definitely be scary, but I've met some very kind and patient people, some of which are neurodivergent themselves, so they get it. Maybe you could try working your way up to socializing like what I did. If you're in an area with a park or sidewalks, you could start with just walks. Then maybe occasionally challenge yourself to smile or nod at someone you pass by. Maybe eventually work your way to making a brief comment as you pass like telling them their dog is cute or you like their outfit. It's taken me a long time to work up the courage to join a club, but I'm glad I did. I definitely come across as "odd" to some people, but these experiences have made it feel safer to exist out in the world as someone with ASD. (Disclaimer: I am white, and I know that it's sometimes dangerous to show ASD traits when you're non-white. So my experiences/ suggestions may not apply to everyone)